self awareness

Deleted all our pictures Now all I got is these memories It's funny how you send them still Saying you could of been with me In a different life or a universe It was meant to be Girl I was mediocre at Showing how much you meant to me I don't really have too much fun Being at Slate Niggas say words to my back But never my face They know when it comes down to it I'll violate I'm always around people I think i'm need of space Some alone time I been hearing things from both sides I'm not even sure who's on my side I done fought a whole football team And I seen you watch from the sideline I done broke bread While you was dealing with hard times How the fuck are these people neglecting me Funny how one night can change it all But I can't even let it get the best of me Maybe this is God's plan Or something is else is testing me Weight up on my shoulders weighing heavily That's why I hit gym And work it all out Feelings on the table I'll give you something to talk bout I know a lot of shit you niggas done But I won't talk out I rather not be Blac Chyna messy It's difficult to see where your head at Thru all this txting The things I put you through Girl, I'm praying I can correct it They tell me not to deal with you But you know i'm hard headed Influenced by some bitches Who like shadowing your presence Are they gone ride for you No question when you steppin (are they?) At any moment any second I'll die for you These niggas won't even come step in Don't care who I been with Girl you always have been my preference Just pull up I'll be present Know why? Cause when it's all over I promise i'll still be here, yeah Even when it seems like I don't care I still care, yeah Got a lot of shit That's on my mind I wouldn't share, yeah Should of seen it coming That's me being unaware But i'm on it now You cannot tell me i'm not prepared, yo You cannot tell me i'm not prepared, yo You cannot tell me i'm not prepared, yo My biggest problem Is I away run from problems Instead of trying to talk about it I just jog around em And they catching up Might have to fuck a nigga's bitch Just to shut him up Sippin mimosas with shawty When I should be having brunch Clueless with your emotions for real I was so out of touch Knowing in the back of my head I ain't love you enough But let another nigga take my spot I go crazy Fuck it i'll stop hatin though That's only if make me I ain't holding my breath Need to fix my mental Think my life's a joke? Now quiet with all of your shits and giggles Niggas say that they be with you But never were really with you I seen it happen, i got outta jail And became so vengeful Can take it there but I rather not Say I can end it all I'll be happy just watching you rot The same way that I watched you mothafuckas Try counting me out Went from sleeping in my backseat To a king size in my fucking house, nigga These Amiris on me These ain't Levi Strauss nigga Remember always being laid up On the couch with you Watching Law and Order Now i'm dealing with these cases And i'm still on papers It's ironic ain't it? The shit is tainted Did each other dirty Me and pain got a relationship We always flirting Hurt by you once before No other way to hurt me You was on my team Now you wearing somebody else's jersey Damn Control yourself And know yourself I went and did that Searching for my inner peace I had to get that Hate that I was put in that position I admit that Conflicted with my feelings for you Be there when I get back I'm saying Yeah Cause when it's all over I'm hoping that you're still here, yeah Even when it seems like you don't care I know you care, yeah Got a lot shit that's on your mind You shouldn't share, yeah Should of seen it coming You were young and unaware But you on it now No one can tell you, you not prepared, yo No one can tell you, you not prepared, yo No one can tell you, you not prepared, yo