Northbound on a Southound Train

He's a tourist. He vacations in people's lives, takes pictures Puts them in his scrapbook, and moves on All he's interested in are his stories I speak my life and y'all listen, all the hell that I've been in I'm hoping if I get it out, one day I'll be forgiven If I can break with tradition, erase the rulebook unwritten Looking at my future now like what's the correct decision With one little change would I still be in this hole Would it finally fuel the light that's out inside my soul Leaves me feeling empty with no shoulder to cry on Standing at the summit like, this the hill I'ma die on Pick up all the pieces and try to hold it together Think of brighter days when living through colder weather Or the day when it finally all means something Headed wrong way on the tracks and that train's coming I've made mistakes, I've caused some pain I only hold myself to blame It stains my soul with so much shame Living my life in this cloud of rain If I passed tonight, would y'all remember my name In the search for the light, brighter burns out the flame On a broken road build a brand-new lane Going Northbound on a Southbound Train Sometimes I wish I had a little more story to my life I wish I could go back and do some things right Wish I left this town, went away to a college Not stayed home with my friends getting high, I acknowledge All that mistakes I've made that kept me where I'm at The things I would change if I only could go back The things that'd be different if I had better crafts Leaves me looking back and wondering if it's that My (father's) up in chemo, I'm down here smoking like a chimney Only thinking about myself, that's that sociopath in me I won't change so what I say just means nothing Headed wrong way on the tracks that dam train's coming I've made mistakes, I've caused some pain I only hold myself to blame It stains my soul with so much shame Living my life in this cloud of rain If I passed tonight, would y'all remember my name In the search for the light, brighter burns out the flame On a broken road build a brand-new lane Going Northbound on a Southbound Train I speak my life and y'all listen, all the hell that I'm living This music shit ain't taking off, should get back to the kitchen At 32 you gon' switch it, suddenly change position Looking back from 37 like man what was you thinking What was you thinking? What was you thinking You thinking Man, what the fuck were you thinking I've made mistakes, I've caused some pain I only hold myself to blame It stains my soul with so much shame Living my life in this cloud of rain If I passed tonight, would y'all remember my name In the search for the light, brighter burns out the flame On a broken road build a brand-new lane Going Northbound on a Southbound Train