happy birthday

Sorry I didn't say, "Happy Birthday" I had the message all planned out on that Wednesday But something in me told me if I opened up that box Every inch of healing would be broken and so lost See I have worked so goddamn hard to lace back up these boots But every time I see your face in all the pictures I'd like to erase I'm on you Right back on you If I looked into your eyes Blue as our favorite lights I would see past all the lies Forget what you did that Halloween night I would hold you close to me Unfold you obsessively But I don't want to make amends I've never been good at being just friends so I'm fine, I'm fine, I'm fine I'll put myself together again Once again Sorry I got so awkward at that bar It's like there's something in me that needs to prove I'm very far From the hurting and the crying I want to be your polished gift Remember when you called me that? "Your gift you like to kiss" Shit, I'm on you Right back on If I looked into your eyes Blue as our favorite lights I would see past all the lies Forget what you did that Halloween night I would hold you close to me Unfold you obsessively But I don't want to make amends I've never been good at being just friends so I'm fine, I'm fine, I'm fine I'll put myself together again Once again I'm fine, I'm fine, I'm fine Who Who Who are you now? I wonder if we ever think of each other at the same time I love where you live in the corner of my mind Who Who Who are you now? Sorry I didn't say, "Happy Birthday"