The Sun Frowned at Me

How far does this rabbit hole go? Begging to the moon to come and take my soul Hanging by a thread swinging from a noose the pain takes a toll Roll another one but lace it with your love so I can feel a warmth that I've never felt from the sun I hope this spliff is never done Can't remember last time that I had fun without smoke in my lungs Liquor in the liver, brain in a haze but your smile is the true killer I wish your lips would touch mine but if they do that Then I'll rot and decay and I still haven't made it back To a better place, so Live in infamy or try to heal another dying tree with weathered leaves I'll bite your tongue with my sharpened teeth Space is a graveyard full of hopes and dreams But I'm just a rag doll who's ripping at the seams, see See when you look into my eyes nothing as it seems See the blacks of my eyes everything so obscene See the scenery and steal the souls of the broken hearted Pardon the hardened I've walked through Tartarus Stepped over carcasses Melt away into the lake like Narcissus And from my place a flower will bloom With wilting petals or a healthy stem well that's up to you I'm giving you the power to watch a person bloom It's getting real crowded so someone leave the room My aura's black and grey you can call it doom and gloom One one one I hope my wishes come true And if they come true I hope it happens soon Cause I'm so tired of begging to the moon I'm so tired of painting black balloons And the sun's real pissed because I forgot about its hue I saw your face displayed upon the rising sun And it changes from the angle that you view it from And my tears are mercury, burn into the skin and My eyes are irritated from the acid in my vision, but I do the best I can Under the circumstance Trapped in a dreamland wishing I could die again It's an infinite loop a Mobius strip Never-ending cycle of penance with the whip It's the seventh seal and Death hit me with a checkmate And I find myself a gloom on these sunny days, and When I'm with you I'm not thinking about the pain but I still feel it in my chest when you ask me about my day And my eyes are craters from the meteors of your stare I'm packing bags below my eyelids I'm blinded from the solar flare And you got a heart of tarnished gold that I wish that I could take care, of I saw your face displayed upon the setting sun This time you frowned at me asking what I'd done I just ossified my body as a mark of the modern times Darker than charcoal eyes All these burnt-out neon signs I got a lot of bad thoughts that I can't control I'm swimming in the vitriol, inject the needle real slow Until I fall asleep But don't wake me up I'll just stay up in my dreams It's been so long I didn't know it was a new week So weak, so we, keep smoking green Until our heads are in the clouds but I don't mind the fall cause I'm used to the ground The silence is so deafening I can't stand the sound And you can find my soul buried in a dirt mound I'm a dopamine fiend there's no pleasure in sight And I only come alive when the moon shines the night, and The sun hates me for it so she lives in constant spite but The stars are accepting cause I'm used to their light, and Moths are just butterflies searching for the light, and Once I find the fire then watch me ignite My gaze is filled with scorn I was born with horns My heart is always torn with little time to mourn I'm just tryna get my wings backs so I can soar once more If I go too high then I'll crash and burn and I'll hit the ground so fast it'll kill the birds Only ravens will remain and they'll pick at my remains Fighting with the vultures watching circles go insane I'm Judge Dredd, judging the dead, I made my bed and Now I'll lay to rest but There's no rest for the wicked Burn the wick to kill the witches I need to break the hex, maybe then I'll break the tsukuyomi Nevermind, real life is much worse Trapped in another spell, it's a living Hell