Shadows

In the shadows before dawn In the rain and the fog I pour out my woes On this paper all night long Beneath these tired eyes Underneath the disguise There's someone who's got some nights Where his pain just can't hide They ask how I'm doin' I tell em' I'm great But my mind is stained I gotta lie so they ain't concerned Cuz feelin' like a burden gon' hurt On Instagram, the fake comments Say they there for you, but let's be honest You know they'll just ghost you the next day So if you trippin' like that, don't ever say (James, you ain't feelin' okay You need some girls, or a shot with pot, it'll feel great) Zip it, don't inject me with nothin', ya whole life a fake Don't want ya blood on my tie if we run fades We're digital natives, the web is depressed The doctors gon' pile up all them all of them meds Swimmin' through dread, not All the followers gonna be friends They said (Life gonna change, yeah, you'll get stronger) But the air don't feel right, the wind just blows harder There's probably hope for a wretch like me But tonight that light goes unseen In the shadows before dawn In the rain and the fog I pour out my woes On this paper all night long Beneath these tired eyes Underneath the disguise There's someone who's got some nights Where his pain just can't hide My soul cries out Am I alone in this pain And as for my struggles Am I the one to blame There's somebody Thought about her everyday, all the time The girl of my dreams, always blew my mind Every few days, she'd pass by, I say hi But she suddenly vanished What the hell happened, I panic so frantic Can't reach her, just radio static Her absence, it burns me like acid, cuz I had this passion I'm trapped in this madness But most people have it worse than I have I had friends try to end it all, still not over that Thinkin' bout my life, and the times it got tragic Watched so many loved ones end up in a casket In the shadows before dawn In the rain and the fog I pour out my woes On this paper all night long Beneath these tired eyes Underneath the disguise There's someone who's got some nights Where his pain just can't hide Lafayette psychos, see where ya end up Told me I was nothin', now ya switch up Don't be takin' photos of me For the Snapchats Mock me in the shadows But ya don't got the nerve to Say my name, it's James Gay All of you orange clowns, get out the way I watch the sun arrive The stars fade with the night Birds chirpin' in the breeze I open up these eyes Things start to feel alright Not every night's gonna be as dark as tonight