Happy Worst Day (Purgatory)

This ain't the way it was supposed to be according to who you crying at the Rosary I showed love so it's the more we see But it's a gamble don't shed no more tears Mon Ami Dying inside smiling when you're around Anybody see my soul inside the lost and found God answer me please pick up the line I'm sick of leaving voicemails I'm going out my mind I pray and I pray like theres no tomorrow Gave up my heart is there a home that I can borrow Is there a place I can go and feel like I belong I know you're used to more strength up inside my songs But I'm losing it Spinning inside of my moral compass It's a useless trip looking deep down and I know theres something No time to be holding grudges Losing my grip big picture untold and smudging Now every day's my worst day This really fucks with me Know there's something Something deep inside Way deep inside That I can't fucking see Can't fucking see Life's a blur I focus the sight occured My mistake But is this really what I deserve Can't seem to find the words A million apologies will still manage to strike a nerve Actions speak louder I'll show you the difference between me and them girl they dont even know you No comparison These demons are deadweight and we carry them I know we triggered thoughts from the past it's time to bury them Easier said than done and I know it But I saw em dying inside our love when it's growing You won't admit it though cause what I did was pitiful Shouldve left your side when you told me look in that mirror though Would you have left mine if you were in my shoes When you'd go all in in love but everytime you lose When everybody you trust let's you pay their dues Felt the rush when in love just to be called a fool Now every day's my worst day This really fucks with me Know there's something Something deep inside Way deep inside That I can't fucking see Can't fucking see Love of my life I pray you're finding yourself Don't settle for nothing but the truth oh dont you lie to yourself Been finding a new perspective The unguided move corrected I'm liking this new direction From the greatest pain comes the greatest strength If heaven was a mile away I'd go to greater lengths Its day by day I know the moment will fadeaway So hold it close to console it soak in amazing grace How sweet the sound I will never know You singing at our wedding but can't imagine a better note Wrote vows that I had never spoke Moment of silence Couldn't think of a better joke Straight face through every curve that's forming Saved dates that just ain't working for me Restless nights you'll cry to hold me through the mourning But I'm in limbo you heard the story of purgatory Now every day's my worst day This really fucks with me Know there's something Something deep inside Way deep inside That I can't fucking see Can't fucking see Now every day's my worst day This really fucks with me Know there's something Something deep inside Way deep inside That I can't fucking see Can't fucking see Now every day's my worst day This really fucks with me Know there's something Something deep inside