Cog

Cogs turning, spinning, burning I don't want to be a cog Cogs turning, never learning I don't want to be your cog I got so much to say, so much shit on my mind I don't think that I could ever leave this past behind I always feel stuck, the same mistakes made I'm trapped in a cycle I can never seem to break You think of yourself, whatever use I may have And every way that you can stack your problems seems to add Right onto my pain, my shoulders weighed with shame Destroy everything new so I would stay the same I go back to my old ways and you wanted that too You wanted me to go back so I'd crawl back to you Without another option I'm forced to go back again And you stole my strength so I can't even pretend My soul, I feel like I cannot breathe It might not be your fault, but don't push this on me You break me, you steal 'til you're full But the truth is I don't fucking think you're beautiful Cogs turning, spinning, burning I don't want to be a cog Cogs turning, never learning I don't want to be your cog You try to look inside, ask me to spell my words You act like my feelings are something that you fucking deserve You told me what to think, and what rules I should follow How I should feel, yet you only ever left me hollow You came back in my life, I tried to push you away No matter what I do you always end up seeming to stay I got over you so tell me why the fuck are you back Manipulate my thoughts until it seems like you were attacked With every time that I thought that I was stronger than that With every verse that I wrote, with every line that I spat And realizing over time that there isn't an end That it's a waste of space and life with energy that I spent Trying to reach a lie, realizing it's false This hope will die again and then seems it's all but your fault Every time I push, you only ever seem to pull And the truth is I don't fucking think you're beautiful Cogs turning, spinning, burning I don't want to be a Cog Cog turning, never learning I don't want to be your Cog And they act like they want to help you They act like you're not smart enough to see it They all decide what your use, what your purpose is Like that isn't a conversation you should be a part of They think they are in control That you're just a cog spinning endlessly under their rule But when you break down, the machine stops Leaving you in control, and leaving them useless Cogs turning, spinning, burning I don't want to be a cog Cogs turning, never learning I don't want to be your cog