Your Pain

No interludes no remedies Lately I find it hard to identify enemies Ain't knowing when to choose waiting for centuries Sometimes it's bad blood in the family like the genovese Regretting what ensues testing my pedigree I guess my name isn't strong as I was led to believe I know I'm in too in tune I tried to set it free I spoke to God hope he pardon me like the seven seas Breathe preach I feel more distant with every second regressing peace I feel more timid with every pledge that I set for me I feel more blemishes where I tread on the cement streets I feel the noises the hugs and pain but I've yet to grieve I feel the poison and anxious anger but I've yet to leave Hate when they hate me but I hate when they love me That's the insecurities of junkie tell me who want me I'm addicted to your pain I'm addicted to your love for me I'm addicted to your pain I'm addicted to your love for me Flashbacks when I'd go outside to unwind Looking at the sky surrounded by heaven's eyes Struggling in disguise but I gotta keep trying Can't ruin my pride but I'd gotta be lyin' If I said was the strongest soldier that you ever seen I seen my momma cry and I died it felt like a dream Tears down my face no droplets it was a stream It wasn't holy water that freed but was water that eased All of my fears tension built up for years Anger turned into pain pain done turned into prayers Praying that nun would happen to me or all my family Pleading for nothing tragic father help me don't damn me I been to funerals looking at mothers crying Fallen due to foes or sickness ion wanna die Lately having them premonitions of my demise Feeling paranoia demons round me comprised Of everything I fear or will ever in my life Wanna protect the ones I love want em' thrive But I would be lyin' if I said I wouldn't be reaching for nines If you breaching on mines reach for the sky Cause I'm a full blown hypocrite I wanna see peace but it's GG's if you go in knee deep on the Fam I got problems God yeah I know I'm damned but I know I ain't a lost soul I ain't the top oath I am the John Doe I am the man speaking for those who ain't got hope I could've cut the vine I was swinging from years ago But how else is the story of joseph suppose to go How else is the story of most of my folks gon grow If I don't tell the truth through the vessel of being known If I don't tell the truth through the vessel of being hope I'm addicted to your pain I'm addicted to your love for me I'm addicted to your pain I'm addicted to your love for me