Calamity

Trapped in insecurity Comfort in instability Sorrow brings closure to a rotting heart Leaves fall Seasons change Sunlight begins to fade A shadow of pain begins to take its place Leaves fall Seasons change Sunlight begins to fade A shadow of pain begins to take its place Phasing in and out like phases of the moon The voices come and go Whispering a somber ending And the ending will come oh so peacefully As I take my final gasp of air One lucky cigarette One more bottle left I am lying still I give in to the disease White lines surrounding Drown out everything I can't shake the craving and the walls are closing in Reminisce Relapse I'm shattering like glass In my mind, every semblance of solace fades Choking, on regret Reliving past mistakes Through flashes of black and white My vision starts to fade Traumatic moments converge in my head Surrounding the pieces of my shattered memory One night, one line Time for resolution Lower the coffin The sun begins to set Rain pours down Sky turns grey I confess I gave in to the substance Time stops, light fades Thoughts become reality Embrace the absurd Do not resuscitate When my heart stopped The world kept spinning Nothing but blackness It felt so painless I was all alone in an empty room Self destruction was the only solution Self destruction, the addiction Led me to a point of no return The craving was all too much to bear I've finally caved in to the disease (I'm falling out of sequence) (I'm fading into nothing) I'll never see heaven I will rot in the earth (I'm falling out of sequence) Please don't waste your tears (I'm fading into nothing) I've finally found my peace As my heart decays I will stare at the clouds Watching the seasons change I've finally found my peace