HEAVENLY FATHER, KEEP ME SAFE

Heavenly father, gotta say I ain't been sleeping well Keeping well, think I lost my faith in a wishing well I take a coin and flip it, all comes clear as it falls This ain't heaven's gates, but I see death, feel the claws If not today then it could always be tomorrow Our time is borrowed, no use wasting it in sorrow So I've been working on myself, have I made you proud? I'm just looking for a signal that you're still around Heavenly father, it's been six years since I've seen her last I still apologise, but it could not have been her time to pass She was just a kid, with a whole life ahead of her But now her only memory lies in roses and vetiver Same patches of grass they lined with tiny tombstones Never got to grow, but I guess it's all part of your plan Maybe you're the same as I am, we all make mistakes Made in the image of God, he got a babyface Heavenly father, it's been five years since we met Every day is on repeat, I hope it's coming to an end Cut the outro, just fade out from the chorus What's your plan moving forward, is there any more for us? If you really got it mapped out, then it's destiny And it doesn't matter what I do, everything was meant to be So you took her from me, you nearly killed my mother This is all your fault, guess you really ain't all loving 'Cause you're the cause of all this hurt Maybe they flew too close to the sun, do angels wings get burnt? Heavenly father, guess you deserted me again But I'm gonna see you soon, we'll talk through it then Fuck leaving a note, this is an open letter So when we meet again they'll understand me that much better Heavenly father, I just don't know what to do Always looking for a cause, never thought bout blaming you Cause we're put on this earth with the illusion of free choice And with free will, we still choose to let the blood spill Over the same fields with symbols of her memory Enough is not enough, this conversations killing me Father please hear me, I've been crying out for so long I don't know how I can go on, knowing my whole life been so wrong Never truly believed, I always wanted to Total absolution in Christ, for the price of faith in you I think that everybody has that moment Where they have to take their pain and own it Or they pass along the onus In the firing of buckshot, you always catch a stray Protect the holy spirit, keep the good followers safe Father, hear me now, if you're still around If you're still in every creature that ever made a sound When they die, does a piece of you die too? So we're not killing each other, we're only really killing you And if I kill myself Then your voice is gone for good Think God forgot me on the rocks in search of cleaner fresher fruit My spirit's destitute, ain't no hell or purgatory Ain't nobody praying for me, I'm always by myself, I'm lonely Even when we speak, I feel this bitter distance There's a universe between us, this time I truly mean it You say we'll meet again; if not now then when? Maybe we're better off friends, still be together in the end When our bodies laying dormant, food for worms and thought before us As together we stay haunted by the things that always taunt us Life's unanswered questions didn't get any clearer Gather the sinners and believers see which side should truly lead us Cause I been following leaders, playing both sides Lighting sage that's wrapped in bible pages, praying over lay lines High tales with some low lives, high fashion comes with low pride Quick tumble but a slow rise, I fumbled but it's alright Heavenly father, there's only one thing left to do 'Cause I was never scared of death, I was only scared of you We'll talk through it then The choir sings again Just a mortal man Life comes quick But I don't care about it Got nothin' left to give Got nothin' left to live for Keep 'em away, I'll come when it's safe Keep 'em away, I'll come when it's safe Keep 'em at bay, don't know when it's safe, yea Demons at bay, I'll come when it's safe Know it ain't safe, when I get messy Know I was born with no blessing Hit 14 before he met me Father to only my chemistry Raised by a single mother Only child no brothers Stayed inside under covers Rope tied round my curtain rail for comfort Saw the light on the other side say time to go Closed eyes, I was born again paved a new road Touched ground, left astound, dead on arrival Came back same old shit plague my mind Ways I found put me in the ground Nodding out, same repeating sound Keep 'em away, I'll come when it's safe Keep 'em away, I'll come when it's safe Keep 'em at bay, don't know when it's safe, yea Demons at bay, I'll come when it's safe Promises, sick of empty promises Sick of my incompetence Sick of fucking consequence Never knew I'd make it Never thought I'd see the day Face the cause of my mistakes Tomorrow's already laid to waste May wake up in my casket case Plans I made meant nothing, knew I'd flake Life was never promised, could be mine He takes All choices are final, hope it's mine He takes My broken body dropping, Lord, please keep me safe