Revenge On The Soul

Can't believe it Anger boiling Can't ignore it Yelling for help I need it They gone push me off the edge I bet Something's keeping me Acting out is rising in me In ways I've never seen Unprecedented every minute I'm livid and burden stricken Head's hot in the heat of The moment Don't need no sympathy or no tear You can toss your condolence Right off the deep end Where I tend to be Since I lost my focus And if you cared to get this I'll mention It's different I've witnessed so many dark phases A miracle my mind's still in tact Some people use you up When done you're on the curb Like you're trash And some abuse you up When done they take a step back And laugh But don't they know I got more Than nerve to retaliate back Nah Fight's not mine I tried but it's not my time Go to war for what I love on any day And any given night Beam the light up and I'm there On sight Held em up and now Look at me bout to break Like I'm losing might Sight dim like I'm losing light Was up then was losing life And I felt em taunt my downfall Even seen it all I took a mental picture Tho you'd find it there online Might fly off the handle And spiral, act paralyze Cuz I can't move In this mindset Lash out what I can't do Cuz I might set it off Blow up like I hate to Think I might have one shot Might not get a take two Better make do I will never cheer if they lose Or if they fool around and Land right in a pit the same as mine I would still reach out a hand Like lemme aid you (Aid you) Quick tempered's the way God wired me Been cool the last 8 years So don't go and light up no fire in me Take some steps on back If your goals ain't too inspiring Once an extrovert Leave me 'lone I gotta find my peace Cuz if you know you know Then you know just how I kinda be Anger in my blood Makes it boil A whole thousand degrees Too hard to fight back anymore Feel like I gotta breathe If I release I'm outta control Right when I break the leash And you can find me out Onna roll I feel it cutting deep Wild I got revenge on the soul This isn't norm for me Don't wanna have a heart that is cold So do it gotta be Don't answer that it's rhetorical A voice then speaks to me And what's it say Dear child I seen it all Sorrows felt em too Don't leave today seeking revenge Cuz that might be the end of you In this time of pain and grief Think about what's right and true And pray like your life's depending on it Cuz it really do Nigh unto those that are brokenhearted 'Member that I am Tugging all on those who have departed 'Member that I am Elevating you to the uncharted 'Member that I am Greater and above your circumstances Cuz I am I am Better than this Got sense talked in me Running plays With the court vision When I'm more livid Tend to build up with more vengeance And in store is a work of art I'm endorsing it Feeling more gifted Bump laws I ignore physics And of course it is All God Never forcing it and Out the door it is For the ones that ever wished the worse For me I'll never let up off the gas Like I'm flooring it You can take that to the bank! Yeah I'ma tumble But never will stop My whole life story'll put em in shock Down at my worst Something had unlocked Stack up the bars like I load at the dock Set it in motion and letting it rock Feel the ground quaking Whenever I drop I'm out here moving like I'm On a clock I know Don't get so worked up when they working me The situations I've encountered Something that I've never seen That's not to say that Others ain't seen More worse things A trial it is of my faith God please help my unbelief