Confession

I'm dedicated to my dream like I got to win I hope lord really forgive cause I know I sinned Some people died I'm teary eyed is this really real Often in question cause I'm stressing I don't know how to feel I told lies to feed my pride do that make me real Am I getting closer to my dream I swear I'm losing will Young nigga finally be pappy I'm evolving still Got to keep the chrome when sliding home cause I ain't made of steel I been rapping soo long like he ain't made it still My shawty out here trippin on me I can't pay the bills Told her I'm going through depression she don't think it's real My daddy talking bout he dying he den wrote his will Sending text to my phone like I'm really ill Brother said his losing weight but I'm gaining still I'm went n gave my all to em When I ain't shit to give Having thought bout suicide It's harder living here Most shit I want I free Why it's so hard to give Don't give a fuck about the money I'm gone see a mill I had to watch my granny die it's replaying still My brother little baby died that shit was really ill My best friend cut me off like we ain't growing still Often in question bout my friends was they really real Or served a purpose in my life meaning I need to heal Watch em all wrap around when I sign this deal I swear I don't trust nobody feeling chief for real Got to be real with myself or nobody will My niggas dying too young I got to write a will I thought I made it through the storm it's a battle still Can I tell you that I'm numb and I wanna feel Gott be smarter with my living I got to do it different I can't let my dreams die so I'm charging with precision I know my granny lookin down I wanna come and visit I went & dove inside that water now I'm swimming with the fishes Got to be real with yourself or you flaw nigga I member days on the bench now I ball nigga They ah help you build it up but won't fall with you I took that trip outta state now my vision different It get lonely when you grinding I got to watch my back so I'm playing it safe They say they solid but not about it Don't need you around get the fuck out my face