Decay

I thought a rose was beautiful But I worry deep inside I dread the day It will decay I fear the rose will die Will you still remember me after I'm gone You can't just expect me to live and move on The love that I gave you It made you so strong Why'd you leave after so long Thinking of why Got so many questions They don't believe in God 'til I shish-kebab the necklace Criss cross the sevens Split off the heavens from the Earth one of the worst mistakes oft' made 'Til this little light of mine flash mob grace Tryna tack on faith in the face of oblivion Shrugging off chains ducking saw blades chucking rocks straight I been stuck in a hard place yelling God save me But it's all fake Running and running from all my mistakes Friends growing distant it's maybe too late I should call em and talk but my thoughts in the way I do this for Ross I do this for Donna and for Lloyd and for John For those who we've lost For those in the Fog For DOOM and for Pun and for Steez and for Sean For Mac and for L and for Biggie and Pac I'm swearing to God, Walk on my path 'til it tear me apart Bury my heart in Brașov The home of my mother who since I have lost Sins of the Father get passed to his spawn Shatter the glass into shards Mirrors and smog Pick up the pieces and try to move on Dreams in the marrow of bones Moment too late so just leave me Alone And scared to leave my home and roam around the globe with songs on replay What he say What she say Man forget it All these thoughts exhibit a fake life for me It's a sight to see what I see Am I free No you're not Got what others thinking battling your heart How do I start being carefree How do I know the kin around me are there for me, how do I Imma stop you right there, focus on yourself and never go back, Never lack the confidence I know you got it Never let another man take your spot And understand your the only one playing your part So never stop Never stop Never stop Never stop Betting on yourself Focus on your health And tryna get yourself out that cell called life And keep on tryna to evolve like On Sight You're on right I guess Nah, I need more energy, you're on right Yes I'm on like K.Dot, it's in my DNA On like Tyler Not scared of what I say Who I offend And the loss of friends but deep down I should worry more Thats the cycle of anxiety a constant war Should I worry about myself or soar for the image I'm battling between freedom and a life sentence I'm gone I'm gone I'm gone Can't settle with it Indefinitely stoned like I'm sedimented I don't even wanna know whenever this will end Man I should move on but I'm lost A tentative blend See don't wanna let go I suck at goodbyes Don't ever wanna lose sight of your eyes Now I'm just lying here rolling the dice Rolling the dice Thinking of if you will Will you still remember me after I'm gone You can't just expect me to live and move on The love that I gave you It made you so strong Why'd you leave after so long Life And the anxieties that come with it Almost make it as if it's not worth it Alright I been asking questions that'll make god angry Heard em on the daily Still going crazy Don't know how to feel Didn't choose to be real I just woke to the sounds and the sights Now I got these pains nestled right near my eyes And I just can't Man I just can't feel safe Any damn day could be the one That's why I'm sewn to my love And if we run, we run There's more to this So much more to this Even taking the bus go to the store and shit It's just nice to exist but the flip of it is I can't ever feel comfortable How wonderful To see your face But I know someday Man I know someday I don't wanna think like that so I won't I don't wanna bring that tone so I won't Just wanna hold you close just know I'll be there from now to the end I'll be there from now to the end man Always Always man yeah always Man it never goes as planned I gotta clear my head I need to make amends Yeah always never feels right to pretend So I feel everything and it's like its the end yeah Always Every time you go away Always seeing your gorgeous face I wanna make it through the storm While the boat gets laid to waste I wanna be like an anchor that holds you in place I wanna be everything that you want I want to take every drop of your love I wanna be with you until we're dust But I do not know what i'd do if i had to see you walk away or decay I have nothing to lose I have nothing to prove I would just bid adieu and blast off to the moon I'd just jump off the roof Turn the rope to a noose Or the gun gonna shoot