A Cry for Help

I feel like nobody gets it Prolly cause they never listen I give them music from pain I bet if I die they won't miss me Yo i'm tryna be someone different But everybody fight a past So tell me why I feel alone If all of you are really friends You only love me through a phone But I feel you playing pretend You'll turn out fake in the end I wish the fake would just end Who let the snakes out the pen Who defines what makes a man Is it the money he makes Does anybody understand Or do we define by mistakes We the vine from the grapes We divide from the greats Back of the class back in eighth I took control of my fate I barely had any faith I drifted from God for a year But this time I straight walked away The man hasn't helped me in years So tell me why I should keep faith Tell me why I should walk straight Crooked sticks draw straight lines Yo I heard that line from Lecrae So you prolly thinking I'm cray But what if you had a vision Then the colors fade away I didn't ask for this life But I was born anyway Write to the beat from a hero I guess they don't need a cape Man I'm tired of a zero I need some cash in my bank I release music for free But they don't care either way I just feel scared to trust friends Cause I feel they playing me Waiting for me blow up So they can start taking from me Like Billy I heard you got bread Ain't you gone break it for me Stare at the ceiling for hours Before I climb up outta bed Honestly tired of feeling I wish this life would just end Don't you dare say you feel me All I have is a pen And I know that you got friends So whenever you feeling broken You can find healing through them And even if I had a circle I probably still couldn't vent I just can't let no one in I don't want them feeling bad for me I won't even play pretend I don't think I can keep battling I don't think I'd ever win I was a freshman in school When I started battling this Everybody knew my struggle But they never lent a hand Now they all see the hustle Now they all hear me me vent Now I'm deep in the tunnel Chasing the vision I dreamt Chasing the things that I see in my mind Talking to you is a waste of my lines I'd rather vent to a mic That's the thing that doesn't judge It's the only way I feel alive And if I never get to change the world At least I can say that I tried But they won't ever get to see me fail That's why I give it All that I got That's why I'm taking Every shot I didn't think I'd ever leave Opp One day I hope the pain I feel stops There's no other options I gotta keep going Don't live in the moment I'm stuck in the past But foresee the future I hope this will last I know what I gotta do Gotta get up and walk out of this place I lost my hope I lost my faith Gotta find grace Gotta find hope again God I just hope I can All of the suffering's gotta be worth it right I know that I'm strong But why do I gotta fight I'm lost in the dark I gotta find the light It's hard cause I do it alone Nobody's by my side I pushed away All of the people who's ever been close to me LG I'm sorry But that was the only way I could save you I know that it hurts Maybe one day you'll find worth in those words Sometimes I feel like I'm lower than dirt And I don't deserve Anything that's ever earned Everything's has lost it's worth I wanna say sorry And maybe one day I can find those words