Painful

Its real light Had so much on my plate That my plate broke Pastor had told me tuck my chains And I should pray more Mama said protect your heart Nobody stays close And when you lose people Just breathe and stay stable Brodie had that black mask before space ghost Said if anybody got any issues I keep that thang close He serving 40 for a first 48 they say case closed Told me he ain't do it But he ain't giving up the names though Right after that said he wished he could have changed He went from boxing and shooting Cause he was running with a gang To boxing a gang Cause they wouldn't let him change clothes Said its a different world Doctor Strange or Dewayne both Told him I was hitting south by he like dang If I would have stuck with you I'd prolly be up on that stage yo We had some differnt paths and you just stayed up in your lane more I told him I don't think its about the path its the angle Tried to call again week later he a angel Bro he took the body for got booked Thought he gave his name up Now that's painful Now that's painful Sometimes they gone blow the smoke To let the pain go Sometimes they just pour the shots To let the pain go Sometimes Sometimes we stay silent More on our plate though Now I'm talking to brodie In dreams and prayers Like your niece finna be 2 And she don't ever take no favors Highkey she act like you She love my music she a rider Looked at me and said I know I'm God angel right beside her Big man said he took me cause She was needing guidance So all my loyalty was in his plans He was devising Schemes to take your little queen Up to the highest Every move we make is fuel to motivate The ones beside us I teared up like He taking what's beside us for behind us He said trust Live your life the best you can and stay righteous Everything you do go impact a soul And then you guide them I asked him what I should do next He just smiled stayed silent Faded away said get faded keep vibing And that's painful Now that's painful I think I need to speed up I still got time to go You think I need to ease up Cause of how hard I go I'm the beat to the drum Squeeze release and I pump I bring blood to the vein I'm the air to the lung This is life in my music Every line is a sentence Synonyms for the love Infatuated with living I don't like scary movies To busy focused on killing Every beat with a different Vibe Okay let me introduce myself I self induce my image S I D E show me something different Glide freely floating on this feeling Feeling fine intertwine losing track of time I'm lost in the moment hold it closely cause it's here then gone Locked in by my lonely its the only way I get it done Simmer down yall just fall off when the summer done Filling voids I can't wait to eat like Ramadan Still annoyed from minor mishaps I know I shouldn't have Learn to live with my mistakes I left it in the pass Put 1 in the air like its 4th and long I'm finna pass Taking everything I wanted Never was I finna ask Never taking it for granted Forever staying in my bag Swerve my lane my flow like a train And we finna crash This is practice all I do is train How I run these tracks If this was track I would be Usain Wait run it back If this was track I'm Wilma Rudolph Gold around my neck Goat outside my name It's cold outside I bet I put that work in Might as well try my best This a vibe I yes Hit my dougie wipe the sweat I'm on fire cool me off I need like a thousand fans I was watering my seeds Sprouted like a thousand plants All cause you inspired me to be a better man I am him I'm the man And that's painful I am him I'm the man Yeah that's painful