For The Better

I've had too much here to drink That I can barely just think I'm trying to stay here afloat but I'm fucking scared that I'll sink I'm drinking just by the hour and looking back at our pics Drunk as a bitch Blacking out with a fucking bottle of whisk Questioning how in the fuck did this get as bad as it is? All I remember was the summer at the beach with our trip Then two months later I get filed for harassment and shit Now I'm in court, three year ban, it feels like man, is this it? 'Cause I didn't expect this shit to get all bad in some ways From that PFA to the fucking judge won't give me no say To being falsely accused of abusing her in a way How could I touch her if I loved her? You all think I'm insane But shit, you barely know the facts but I'm just trying to convince 'Cause people hate me to death over things that I never did But if I violate the papers 'cause of this music and shit Then fuck it, I'll go to jail But I won't fail to know that it's just for the better It's just for the better There never was a forever You need to learn to forget her 'Cause you've been driving your self crazy It's never Gonna be the same when you meant her But you can't be an upsetter 'Cause you are driving your self crazy It's just for the better There never was a forever You need to learn to forget her 'Cause you've been driving your self crazy It's never Gonna be the same when you meant her But you can't be an upsetter 'Cause you are driving your self crazy Flashback to twenty fifteen That was the year that we meet Some socially awkward kid seem to met the girl of dreams It was so hard to believe Took you to semi that week Still can't remember if that dress you wore was a blue or a green Of course we would disagree We were just both young in our teens Then Christmas Eve came around and fights would end us complete I fucked up more than it seemed But shit, I didn't care if you leave 'Till you was with someone else, I get so mad I would freak Those fucking three months you was with him was way too hard to just see You would just walk right in school and not even bother with me I guess that's how it would be You was as spiteful as me But that's what made me love you the most 'cause I saw you in me You see, it's hard to look back and know exactly what you need Shit, were we meant to be? At the time man, that's how it would seemed How did I fuck up this up this dream? I should've blamed it on me I guess I was just irresponsible to see But I guess it's for the better It's for the better There never was a forever You need to learn to forget her 'Cause you've been driving your self crazy It's never Gonna be the same when you meant her But you can't be an upsetter 'Cause you are driving your self crazy It's just for the better There never was a forever You need to learn to forget her 'Cause you've been driving your self crazy It's never Gonna be the same when you meant her But you can't be an upsetter 'Cause you are driving your self crazy I've broke unbearable lengths Took down that terrible fence When do I pair up the strength to get up and do this again? I've been so fair in the end But their no comparable trend I take my bare knuckles and left a fucking tear on my head How could I do this again? Now we are not even friends I take the blame for half of it but you the reason I've been So fucking pissed off If I list off every goddamn thing that you did I wouldn't have songs to just vent Probably have no career to begin But look, as long as your happy I don't have any reason to be mad I just got to find some way to get all this anger and hate off my back So whether it's this song or Abuser or any future songs I rap Just know that it's all for the fact Of getting this shit off my ass Few days ago I stumbled back on some letters that we would write in high school I thought that was gone in the shredder Man, those were simpler times I miss those days in November but now it's over I must move on and remember that it's only for the better It's for the better There never was a forever You need to learn to forget her 'Cause you've been driving your self crazy It's never Gonna be the same when you meant her But you can't be an upsetter 'Cause you are driving your self crazy It's just for the better There never was a forever You need to learn to forget her 'Cause you've been driving your self crazy It's never Gonna be the same when you meant her But you can't be an upsetter 'Cause you are driving your self crazy