Hard To Handle

There was no love at first now I feel enamored I sit alone in my head get all sour I sit and think about my dreams for hours I just keep praying God please give me power Tell me why I'm still alive what's in store for me Can you tell me why I was born to fly can you answer me Lately I live with genocide inside my mind tread carefully I been through so much shit and how you were there for me Always getting high there was never peace I been locked in chains and now I think I lost the key Been getting comfortable alone so please don't bother me Been getting close to finding peace whenever I go to sleep I'll scratch and climb and die to reach the peak The recipe I must complete The rest of me I see police arresting me try to get away and they wrestle me I been wrestling for a lil while it seems yeah How else am I supposed to feed these demons They've really stayed a while and now they festering I've swallowed it for a lil while and now it's resurfacing so pissed off but i don't wanna make a scene And now I don't feel like I feel no more I don't feel what I used to I don't feel no more I don't feel no more There was no love at first now I feel enamored I sit alone in my head get all sour I sit and think about my dreams for hours I just keep praying God please give me power Tell me why I'm still alive what's in store for me Sum bout this poetry that's pushing me to achieve I can't keep rocking with it it's not pushing me to my dreams yeah Bottle up my trauma then imma shoot it into a sleeve I'll cut off everybody just to have a genuine team Cuz these days are getting harder ain't nothing what it seems And these nights are getting longer with hours lost of sleep I'm really tired of getting stronger my mind is feeling weak Feels like I'm finally getting stronger I'm finding mental ease so please don't wait on me I hate it that I carry all this weight on me I really hate it that I give away my heart for free I was so careless now I'm waiting on my heart to freeze I'm still surprised that my heart strong enough to be with me If you cut me open I bet my heart would barely bleed I been trying so hard for so long to find the missing piece Everybody pushing me to see the good things but You cannot make me Spend a day in my shoes you'll feel My heart aching There was no love at first now I feel enamored I sit alone in my head get all sour I sit and think about my dreams for hours I just keep praying God please give me power Tell me why I'm still alive what's in store for me yeah I swear it's something bout this poetry I'll cut off everybody just to have a genuine team Cuz these days are getting harder