Voices

Sleep in my bed with the noises Deep in my head it's the voices Speaking their venomous words like a poison Dealing with death that's just one of my choices Sleep in my bed with the noises Deep in my head it's the voices Been in a cell for so long that it feels like I've already been here a year Not even near When in the hell will they stop acting fearful of me And stop freaking out every time I appear? When will you get a hard grip on yourself And just be the man you were born to become? Can't speed up the change Cause it's already begun There's nothing left to be done All this built up and hidden anxiety Has got me biting my nails And ripping the skin on the tip of my fingers off I get writers block for two whole days My mind is blank like a fresh page of paper Head so fresh like I rented a new borns brain Call this fare a fete but Fate's rarely fair though Hop on this merry go round if you dare bro Knock off the stare Or I'll leave you stuffed like a scare crow No! I don't get scared bro Living they're whole lives thinking it's their show Little did they know I'm the reason it was aired, So Listen in you Carstairs are not hard Sitting in your armchairs with hardly a care to be given I can barely keep the anger in my heart Down in the dark Found in the park Gouged with the sharp tip of a large shiv If you start shit you will get marked quick With a target on your back Starting over fast Go and pack your bag Starving for a last Toke before the Jacks Come to take me back to C6 in the Gorrie See this isn't for me Please relive it for me Reaching for your weed What? Reaching for the pot Huh! That you don't even got That you won't see a lot How you gunna deal without it How you gunna sleep without this Seeing the dreams come out when There's no drugs in me to drown them out Nothing to shut them down for now Nothing but me and myself against everything else still I keep to myself Never needed no hand outs or help up I stand proud with my head up in the clouds Cuz I'm the best of the bunch Once we were friends now I mess up your lunch Better preach what you wrote Or you'll reap what you sow Moral of these stories is that if you're too slow You'll show up just in time to see me reaping all the glory Most of my people really bore me Most of these cunts don't even know me They wanna talk about me when they're somewhere safe and cozy Got a lot to say until they're standing here before me Spray flames that make your neck crack when your head turns all the way around I don't want to hear another sound coming out of him unless I tell him otherwise Organise your life or end up five feet under over night Right beside the other guys Catch these guys by surprise Every time that they survive That's me trying to be nice But they don't recognise the kindness When you brake so fast to avoid a crash You escape one bad and you face another path Take my brother back to pay these suckers back This pain I suffer I paint over that with a change of colour Pray away the thunder with a way above the earth Make you wonder when the sun is covered where the fuck do you go when your home all alone? Sleep in my bed with the noises Deep in my head it's the voices Speaking their venomous words like a poison Dealing with death that's just one of my choices Sleep in my bed with the noises Deep in my head it's the voices Speaking their venomous words like a poison Dealing with death that's just one of my choices Lately I've been feeling like I'm sick of being lazy Always waiting for a reason but I'm being kinda crazy People change like seasons but my reasons stay the same Just like the treasonous demons That I'm keeping sleeping peacefully deep down inside of my brain Creeping up like I'm Bane Sneaking aboard your plane Leading a double life just like Wayne Feeling fucking insane! They don't deal well with defeat Games are cheap cuz you can play for free If I take your queen she's gunna stay with me I'm playing for keeps so I'm keeping his piece Stealing his feeling of peace when I'm wielding a piece at his nieces and nephews Leaving them cut when they see me take the lead Cream them in a fair race Beat them at their own game in my own way No change to my old ways because I wont make it to an old age Most days I have no faith in my own brain let alone yours Days old in my own zone No way we can go back to the old days and I know that I just hope you know that I'll never let myself turn back into the old me Sleep in my bed with the noises Deep in my head it's the voices Speaking their venomous words like a poison Dealing with death that's just one of my choices Sleep in my bed with the noises Deep in my head it's the voices Speaking their venomous words like a poison Dealing with death that's just one of my choices