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Hope you still guard over me over that window Once you cross over baby run to your end goal 12 to forever I'll be missing you tenfold You're the reason heaven exists for Hope you still guard over me over that window Once you cross over baby run to your end goal 12 to forever I'll be missing you tenfold You're the reason heaven exists for Met you when I was 12 when I was feigning for attention Since the household constantly having tension So sought a friend in you, never had to say a sentence We just clicked, connected at the hip (Shit) Always kept a stick, green in your bowl Taking any swing my dad would go and throw Getting a whole rake broken off your coat Didn't know what to do had escape the household So we ran to the park, trynna to not get found though Ran the streets, ha bro with the round nose Just two youngins, broken from a foul home Dad constantly threatened to kick you out though Took the brunt of his anger, still kept a smile on Weird kid, stayed in my head more than my home You were the only one when it came to me spent there time on When my family was broken you were my bond Hope you still guard over me over that window Once you cross over baby run to your end goal 12 to forever I'll be missing you tenfold You're the reason heaven exists for Hope you still guard over me over that window Once you cross over baby run to your end goal 12 to forever I'll be missing you tenfold You're the reason heaven exists for You following each move looking up to me When my mental was to much you gave love to me Never placed yourself above you'd stand under me You Protecting me, me protecting you 15 in the city Made me feel bullet proof Cancer never made you once stop Running from the crazy neighbors at the bus-stop Threatened us both almost hit with a gun shot Going down the slides as a kid, playing football Too smart for your own good, since a foot tall Heaviest in your litter but had the most energy Get into trouble; I was pissed but now missing these Moments, now that I saw you struggling to getting up Muscles dwindling and thinning up Got me tearing up, fearing stuff Like Father Time, and Mother Nature - fuck Hope you still guard over me over that window Once you cross over baby run to your end goal 12 to forever I'll be missing you tenfold You're the reason heaven exists for Hope you still guard over me over that window Once you cross over baby run to your end goal 12 to forever I'll be missing you tenfold You're the reason heaven exists for At the park, having heart to hearts, never parted ways Even when homeless had you in a reach of arms Call me soft, never claimed I'm hard but you leaving earth Got me weak as all, mind seems to teeter off Can't stop thinking of you dog feeling lost My hell started when you left to go to heaven Almost every day for 12 years we spent together Pit in my stomach builds cause you didn't get better They keep saying you had a long life and nothing lasts forever But fuck that we had more time to spend together Trying to find anybody to place the blame In the wake of your death Cause of the rage and shame It can't wrap around my brain that you're now in a grave Fuck the idea of Devine timing Our family go through trauma together we call that bonding And me and you we had a lot of it Why you have to die for the family to stop fighting? Why did it happen so fast you were just so lively Why did God have to take you, I'm searching for the why's and And I get no answers or responses It's just this hurt feels different The pureness of your soul when it went away and lifted The color in this world became grey and different Scrambling in my head did I make the right decision? All the signs point to yes, but your presence I've been missing Second guessing every thought that I've been thinking Why didn't we make a doctor visit a month quicker? You Could've been healed, you could've been right here Those last seven days wasn't enough I feel You were strong enough to pull through, I mean forreal You went through so much, these illnesses to you were little But it's a moot point, you served your time on earth So my eyes are waterworks angels are swimming in it Try to let out the hurt But i feel like it's never ending Got you 12 years old passed away at the same age The 12th at 12 o'clock, was the end of your pain babe (Goodbye baby) Hope you still guard over me over that window Once you cross over baby run to your end goal 12 to forever I'll be missing you tenfold You're the reason heaven exists for Time beat us this time ain't those kids any more God won't cage you in, you now a free soul So sprint up those steps up to the big door I'll be walking through one day and we can both roam