Toxic

(Here's what you taught me, here's what you taught) I can't even hear your name without getting a shiver I can't even sleep knowing that you're feeling better I can't look at you in the eyes and say i forgive you Cuz you really broke my heart Picking my brother Does he really get you? Why is he better than i do? At least gimme some clues Bitch you always kill my mood Made me feel so lonely When daddy died why did you Shut the door to me? Well it is what it is You threw away my things And made me think that i was crazy While you was the craziest Made me think that i was crazy While you was the craziest You may be old but your toxic Always saying that i don't do shit I'm tryna help but you dont wanna let me Cuz you don't trust me Do you even know me? I'm sick to say things you don't hear You don't give a damn bout how i feel About my death wishes Cuz you ignore me Mom do you even love me? In the end maybe we're not that different Maybe one day we shall meet again? If it's not down here it will be in hell I'm still mad at you cuz i can't forget Eighteen years of my life with your secrets Keeping that kind of stuffs only for yourself What was on your mind for all these years? Thanks God i have friends That help me, I made myself I know you want us to be closer But i can't afford a new disappointment Plus you can't control everyone Work on yourself first And i'll think about it later Well it is what it is I heard now you were happy When i just wanna die You're still crazy and i ain't fine This feeling to fail everytime Hard to accept that i'm an orphan You may be old but your toxic Always saying that i don't do shit I'm trying to help but you don't wanna let me Cuz you don't trust me Do you even know me? I'm sick to say things you don't hear You don't give a damn about how i feel About my death wishes Cuz you ignore me Mom do you even love me? Mom, do you love me? Do you know that love is free? And i forgot to tell you but i like girls too Please don't judge me Please don't judge me Mom don't judge me Why this has to be toxic (Why does this has to be?) Always pretend like you're the victim I'm trying to help but you dont wanna let me Cuz you don't trust me Do you even know me? Even when I scream you don't hear I never told you bout what i did About my death wishes Cuz u ignore me Mom i know you don't love me