Kingdom (feat. _Cipher_ & HH Goody)

When I walk into the gates of the kingdom I am instantly hit by the overwhelming sense of freedom Day to day everyone deserves and works for their pay Dedication and motivation is what the ruler will say If you do that, then you will get your way In times like this we have to be brave If you disobey he will have lots to say So, don't let that determination decay Got these sleepless late nights and I get sentimental I'm layin' in bed with these cracks in my mental My head is a fortress come into the temple I'm tryin' to find who I am to resemble I'm lookin' to God, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Ghost Life is a mess but I can't get it diagnosed Choke on my words as I trap them inside my throat Happiness fading I feel myself losin' hope But that's nothin', table those feelings Fake a smile and tell the world "I don't mean it" Tell my people I'm all good, I'm all fine Don't need the attention they think I'm purposely seeking I be Keepin' busy but I be doin' a bunch Saying "have a great day" after I'm pukin' my lunch Got my uncle in the bathroom shootin' up during brunch And he was gettin' by fine until the dose was too much but I'm on the same track 'Cause when these bass drops hit, I'm thinkin' Biggie Bags Clouded by illusion that happiness is a myth And just a thing that I will never have So when the dough comes quick, I try to double stack Gettin' out of bed in the morning damn for what Trynna find a shirt to cover up the knots in my gut Close the blinds and make sure that the door's tightly shut As I wait for the world to take a tighter grip on my nuts but I take the pressure and throw it down to the dirt With aggression that I've built over years from all the hurt I've been stuck inside my head thinkin' of why I'm really here Oh shit, here we go, now I'm questioning my worth But I'm trynna make a place where we all are in unity Filled with compassion and love a community Prayin' to God this is my opportunity Go spread the word this is not just for you and me I've been lookin' out for a safe place to go For strangers and people I know I've been lookin' for someone to talk to, to vent to When I'm feeling doubts feelin' low See I have been tryin' to set myself free And it got me beggin' dear Lord on my knees I'm just trynna speak from the heart so you know that it's working I'm singing to show you I bleed Everybody's foundation gotta couple cracks in the stone I just hope you know that you don't gotta do this alone I know everyone's searching for that one special place Where their problems are lifted the one they call home So I'm building my kingdom strong to survive every storm As we're tearing down barriers and breaking off of the norm' Today I feel different happy to reach for the door But before I leave I like to give my thanks to the Lord 'cause he He keeps me motivated, lifts my head dedicated In these times of doubt and sorrow Calms my mind, meditated Picture this serenity you gotta go and illustrate it Celebrate together and I tell my mom I up and made it They used to say there was no hope for this hooligan It used to be me clinging to the rope around my stupid chin Next I would be bringin' all the dope in my new syringe Promise to myself that I will never act a fool again But get hype Let's get it right from the start Everybody contributing, and playing their part People coming together, and repairing their hearts Go and tear down your walls please I know that it's hard But this kingdom will stand until we choose to end it Grab onto my arm I will have it extended I see that your broken we'll help to amend it 'Cause this is my kingdom I vow to defend it I've been lookin' out for a safe place to go For strangers and people I know I've been lookin' for someone to talk to, to vent to When I'm feeling doubts feelin' low See I have been tryin' to set myself free And you got me beggin' dear Lord on my knees I'm just trynna speak from the heart so you know that it's working I'm singing to show you I bleed In life we have to put up a fight Sometimes it will take all our might But in the end we will always defend Therefore our kingdom will never end