The Reward Is In The Pursuit

Run Hurry up flea Gotta catch the train for it leaves Gotta run away with the lead For the weight of my own indecision Decide that I've come far enough And I freeze Hold my breath And I try not to breathe much One false step shit one small breeze Could be it for the man that has Literally clawed from to deepest To get just a little less deep Damn, that's a lot to think about I wonder if I'll ever Get as far as I can see Cause I can see a lot of pretty things But the one that's not quite clear Is the line how to Get from A to B Moved west backtrack move east Went south then shit got deep They telling me to leave I tried to get away By escaping the place But the place to escape was in me Well Well I ain't really moved in a minute Less I'm talking how I'm moving independent And I don't gotta send it I been taking this shit on my own And I get personal delivering The message Try to count my blessings But every other second I been Second guessing every other Thing that I been blessed with More quest more questions Only difference is I'm in it now It used to have me dipping Like a test strip Screams like hello hello Sorry I was in a daze And I couldn't recognize That it was you Brain like jello jello Plus I'm not that good with names I got a lot up on my plate It isn't food Must be the devil devil Got me on a different level level Maybe I just feel it's sum I gotta prove So I channel channel All the energy I got inside my body As I'm eying up the target And I line it up and Shoot Nothing else I wanna do Struggle I'm making it through Crumble and lose Pick up the pieces and go The reward is inside the pursuit No matter who Holding me back Got the fire in my eyes I'm doing fine Sticking like glue These are the days of our lives Reward is inside the pursuit The reward is inside of that Like I'm not looking around Tryna find where they hide it at Like I'm not overthinking it Blink and I'll miss it Despite all the time I had Conversations with my sis I know that my tone seems lifeless When I talk to my dad on the phone I can tell that he's older And I just deny it Like I'm tryna write this shit He doesn't know what it's like But I know it's on me to explain it They say a sign that your growing Is not that your problems are gone It's the fact that your problems Are changing Just got a house tryna make it a home But I'm not really in there to make it Just got engaged to a saint Who believes in me more than myself And she pushes me Even when thankless Blessings on blessings Amazing like grace But what's more amazing is I'm graceless No one told me I would hate this Almost more than I could love this No one told me bout the changes No one said it feels disgusting But no one told me it's the greatest Stuck between two generations I'm just blurring out the pain There's nothing left for me to say But line up and Shoot Nothing else I wanna do Struggle I'm making it through Crumble and lose Pick up the pieces and go The reward is inside the pursuit No matter who Holding me back Got the fire in my eyes I'm doing fine Sticking like glue These are the days of our lives Reward is inside the pursuit Shits crazy Shoot Nothing else I wanna do Struggle I'm making it through Crumble and lose Pick up the pieces and go The reward is inside the pursuit No matter who Holding me back Got the fire in my eyes I'm doing fine Sticking like glue These are the days of our lives Reward is inside the pursuit