Grubby

Up the stairwell: chip-fat grey and London green with damp Out on the fifth floor Where the wind grips your jaw And holds you in it's clamp There's a red door, bordered by mottled glass And inside a lighted lamp Pious lives here Pious is tired but can't sleep She twitches wired She lies beside a sleeping body A girl she barely knows She met her in the pub And it went the way it goes The girl's name is Rose But Pious is lovesick for her Thorn She left her in the summer And since then Pious can't get warm She's carried her, stuck in her side Since the day that she was born She dreamed of her and knew her shape Long before she saw her form Well, it's 4: 18, and Pious Has been staring at the blinds for hours She tells herself it's all her fault She doesn't love she just devours Can't sleep so much to do Tryna get closer to you And you're so far away Tryna get hold of what's true And what's true isn't true when it's day Tell me, how can I sleep? Got so much to do I'm trying to get closer to you And you're so far away All that I say and I do are Things that you do and you say How come I'm becoming the one That I'm running from, hunted by? Slurring my words in the pub Feeling nervous and overexcited Arms round the waist of a girl who Might make it alright for a night Yeah, she tears me to pieces Then I lie beside her, awake while she sleeps And I feel much closer to you than I felt when you were still here Spill beer till you reappear I'm thinking of you And the things you do to me I'm thinking of you And the things you do to me Pain in my liver oK Shame so much shame can't bear my frame Can't bear your name oK Can't bear this game let's play New rules old rituals Guilt trip heartstrings snap Want to, can't go back too much Not enough I can't get your claws out of my guts I'm thinking of you And the things you do to me I'm thinking of you And the things you do to me This is my mind gETOUTOFIT You didn't want it How come you're still hanging around in it? This is my body LETGOOFIT you didn't want it How come you're still fucking controlling it? This is my night get lost in it This is my bridge stop crossing it This is my face, stop smiling This is my space you been gone so long How come I still find you hiding? Fighting me i'm fighting my darkest parts I'm frightened nightmares Tighten my hands round my own throat 'Cause you're the snake charmer and I'm the old rope no hope Just go now please, just leave Still in the air that I breathe i'm stranded Arms outstretched for a body any body Here's a body But I wake up and I can't stand 'em I feel so grubby Don't want can't stop just love me Breath like a cigarette stubbed in the gutter Come close, no wait - don't touch me ugly Push and pull phonecall beep Beep looking through names For the one that feels most dangerous I can't believe you're in love again I can't open my heart To anybody but strangers I'm thinking of you And the things you do to me I'm thinking of you And the things you do to me I'm thinking of you And the things you do to me I'm thinking of you And the things you do to me