sorry that I changed

I know I changed up I don't know if ima ever get back, get back right how I used to be Shit feel too different, shit feel too weird But ima just keep going and try to stay focused Yea, Im just sorry that I changed Shit dont feel the same its a lot that's on my brain I been trying to paint this picture for you but can't get it framed Its a beast inside me but I still ain't get it tamed And you know I'll never change on you for fame this from the pain So I ain't switching Promised myself to never fall victim But this shit feel different I been in here trying find out what's missing I still can't figure it out lately I been in here living in doubt All alone intoxicated I been sipping it out Hoping that something will float if I keep shipping it out And that these thought will stay gone if I keep kicking them out But they don't and n**** I ain't gone lie I don't know what else to do but n**** I ain't gone cry Thought I had you by my side but shit that was a lie So did I change on you or was that shit the other way around? I don't know what's going on lately I been feeling I'm losing it So misunderstood even I'm confused with this That's why Im hopping on these tracks I'm trying to get in tune with this Im too myself this something that I don't need your approval with I been way too worried bout they opinions Then I realized they don't even care how I'm living Thinking to myself like I shouldn't even care how they feeling You got to do shit for yourself thats how you gone stay resilient Sorry that I changed up I got to say that to myself cuz I cant blame ya (I can't blame ya) Been trying to paint these pictures but I still can't frame 'em And yea these hoes for everyone so I don't entertain 'em (I don't entertain them) Im just sorry that I changed, but you was always on my brain I tried to stay the same (I tried) Every time I heard your name that shit was novocaine, you was numbing all my pain The umbrella through the rain, you the flame to my propane Im just sorry that I changed Im just sorry that I changed (sorry that I changed) Im just sorry that I changed up Im just sorry that I changed Sorry that I changed up I'm just sorry that I changed up I'm sorry that I changed up (I'm sorry) Yea, Im just sorry that I changed (Sorry that I changed) Shit dont feel the same its a lot that's on my brain I been trying to paint this picture for you but can't get it framed Its a beast inside me but I still ain't get it tamed And you know I'll never change on you for fame this from the pain I been doing everything I can to stay the same (I tried) Tired of sipping alcohol to try and numb the pain (I'm tired) Can't ride with it loaded 'cuz im bound to bust a brain I been feeling violent, anger rising And if I'm being honest scared to talk about it I need a trip to Hawaii or maybe Bali Where I can eat on some good steak and calamari Or shit Santorini, with bitches in bikinis Sipping on some Fiji and eating fava and seaweed With a good bottle of wine we pouring Stella I just hope you listen good 'cuz its something I gotta tell ya Im just sorry that I changed up (Sorry that I changed up) I got to say that to myself cuz I cant blame ya (I can't blame ya) Been trying to paint these pictures but I still can't frame 'em And yea these hoes for everyone so I don't entertain 'em (I don't entertain them) Im just sorry that I changed, but you was always on my brain I tried to stay the same (I tried) Every time I heard your name that shit was novocaine, you was numbing all my pain The umbrella through the rain, you the flame to my propane