Anxiety

Isolation never felt this sweet An addict for the next release Up all night I think I found my peace So when they come lookin for me Tell 'em he fell off medication All the talkin heads locked him down incarcerated I know, a homie needs the help and it hurts me sometimes To see the home that he calls a hell I've hurt myself today And others in my way Care too much or too little Call me bad harmony Caught up in the middle of the storm So I pack my bags and go Where no one will ever know How he ended the show Saving everybody from these tragic woes in my head! The beast that burdens me call him bad company Got me sitting waiting thinking somebody gonna hit a burglary Or murder me I'm nervous see me shake and shiver Quivering ready to pull the trigger Scenarios shuffling clouding my mind Intertwined with the trauma and stress of these times Can't even go in public without gripping the nine Afraid to end up as the next headline And if not now maybe then next time Ya see it doesn't help that I hear this voice Cause then I start to thinking on these suicidal ploys I can't block out the noise because then another joins (Fuck it kill 'em all) Why can't I be normal Instead I'm another immoral mortal With a horrible mind It's dangerous as a field of land mines And with this Glock 9 I'll land mine right upside my dome It doesn't matter cause I'm always alone So if you're hearing this I just want you to know I've hurt myself today And others in my way Care too much or too little call me bad harmony Caught up in the middle of the storm So I pack my bags and go Where no one will ever know How he ended the show Saving everybody from these tragic woes in my head! Freak the fuck out Left on read please don't play that make pretend Paranoid losin threads spiral down the watershed Fill my lungs chronic smoke, hand is shakin uncontrolled who was that Just a dream but everything ain't what it seem Life's a game fuck around find out what it's all about Shadow self havin doubts suffocate to drown it out And kill the noise kill the noise I can't concentrate my voice Is anybody there? Only choice left is death! Cause everyday playing out like a bad dream on a tag team With a jonesing mad fiend That's laughing all the way to the dealer And now it's blasting all the way through ya speaker Hope you're catching and grasping this ether Just So you can understand the wicked creature that is my mind I've hurt myself today And others in my way Care too much or too little call me bad harmony Caught up in the middle of the storm So I pack my bags and go Where no one will ever know How he ended the show Saving everybody from these tragic woes in my head!