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Say I'm okay but I'm freaking out Hey pops can you see me now from the clouds? Are you in the crowd? Did I make you proud? Yeah Yeah Days like these I'm having doubts Can you hear me as I'm screaming out From my mouth I'm about to drown I'm breaking down They say I stick out like a sore thumb Ain't sore anymore because I'm all numb Sipping on that malt liquor and rum Thought it would always solve my problems But it didn't even solve one I guess last night I drunk called him As I hit rock bottom of the bottle That I used to forget about the sorrows That involve you It is my fault that I'm hallow That's a bitter pill to swallow Process starts over tomorrow What do y'all know? I'm just a pretty white boy with a silver spoon grew up in a rich home Fuck that You don't know my predicament Had to struggle ever since I was a little kid Dead dad at the age of 15 With a drug addict mom who's still using And I still say I'm okay Say you're sorry for me thanks man that's great Yeah you're only one phone call away? I'll be there if you ever wanna talk But ain't that what they all say? But when you call it's too late Ain't nobody wanna hear your pain Unless they get paid it's a shame That we all gotta be that way But you still gotta Be positive and look up at the blue sky But to me that sky's grey You should know that I'm a realist You can keep your two cents I don't want your fucking spare change Look I never asked for your sympathy I never asked for no symphony of people that pity me Open their mouth to belittle me What you are lacking is empathy So I sing I will not break under all of the weight And the pressure I hold No I used my ex as my anchor Her bitch ass left me in the cold No Ask me why I don't t trust no more Ask me why I don't trust no hoes Yeah I'm so depressed I'm so depressed Yeah yeah And all of this stress It fucks with my head Yeah yeah Why you fuckin with my head? Hmm mm Got me feeling like I'm spent It's fuck what she said I am Sinking I'm about to drown But nobody paddles out saving me From a sea of doubt That surrounds my pride Why should I be proud? All I did was announce That I'm different take a bow Walk off stage with a permanent frown I never did this shit to make y'all proud I never did it for the fame or rallying crowds I write for the kids who don't have a voice Never got to choose Walking through life all broken and bruised Nothing to lose Walk in my shoes Instead of walking straight You have to walk in a skew From the moment you were born You were already screwed Mom has always picked her needles over you Your suicidal father spread his wings and he flew Out of the stratosphere And dissipated in blue And I'm messed up Torn down All I ever do is scorn now Fake a smile too long I am sore now I don't know if I believe in a lord now Had to move out because the house was foreclosed Mom heating up a spoon in order to cope Little girl without her father 13 years old You may have dealt me shitty cards But I ain't ready to fold I am the man with the stone face Won't ever erode break Bombs bullets and grenades Still I am not phase Walking through a war not a scratch I am unscathed I was only a kid And all of the weight got thrown onto my shoulders My dad always told me that I was his soldier So I had to keep my composure I had to stay locked and loaded Take control of my emotion so I do not fuck this thing up from exploding like