Last Shall Be First (feat. Lady Praize)

Yeah It's been a long time coming You know, I was out in the wilderness for a while But now I'm crossing over (S^LT) I've been patiently waitin, was never forsaken Had to get myself up out the gutter If I was goin make it, been patiently waitin Father, you was just holding me close Didn't really know that I was made in ya image Until the vision that struck me It really shook me, rocked me It really took me to the realm of the spirit Had to lean close in to hear ya Never knew your voice was so clear Had to really trust you Had to stand firm on ya word Through all the pain and all the hurt Through the lying, the crying Betrayal and deceit Ain't gon' put it all on them It ain't gon' put it all on me I know the devil be the reason Lost some friends in my last season If I'm really gon' be truthful Ain't no way it was gon' be fruitful But that's enough of that Blessings on blessings to you I hope you reap everything that you sown And find real love too I mean that in the mighty name of Jesus Christ For real You know it's hard to let some things And some people go but Trust me, God's got a blessing for you and them He's got a plan Just trust him But back to it, I was so passive in my voice I never stood on the things that I felt Causing myself and the ones around me To go through hell, it was insane It was insanity Showed I never cared for me Showed I never understood who I was Through the calamity But y'all knew that Y'all hurt me, y'all abused that I'm healing, I'm gon' make it through I know he'll do the same for you The hurt is true, it's very real I know I played a part in that I hope you can forgive me Through my choices and my trauma acts The first shall be last And last shall be first Oh The life I was living I took it to the limit Satan's playground A one-way ticket Selling drugs and violence Is what I was living A whole lot of cash You couldn't tell me different Thinking I had it all I was so ignorant I was resentful, envious, and belligerent Pride so high I was feeling it No one could stop me I was a misfit Caught up in the world Rebellion got a hold of me Caught a case and ended up taking a plea Had to humble myself Got down on my knees Praying, asking God to forgive me Little did I know the plans He had for me Cause living in this world Ain't gonna do nothing for me The first shall be last Man, that ain't me The last shall be first Thank you, Lord, for humbling me Sis how you gon' tell him bout the way that you found God Bout how you left your old life How you went left then went right So many times I saw the worst in me Main one that was hurtin me I know you can relate to being the one dead in your faith In a dark place at my lowest, empty Jesus came and grabbed me and lifted me Much joy, old life didn't exist to me Tired of the back and forth Hated the old me Worst in me, girl Mirror had a hold of me Reality inside, hurting deeply Faith gone, no mustard seed in me Sis how you keep your faith swallowed by the sea When I was traumatized at 10 I didn't see the light All I had was many tears Fears and no fight, I didn't understand my life But I knew there was a God He had to love me right He had to hear my heart cry My heart crying out for God Soft sobs, love robbed But I knew that he was gon' meet me where I was I stood my ground And I stood on faith Didn't really make sense then But now I'm living in greatness So far it's been straight bliss Been being in his shadow Was hidden from the world But now he letting me at 'em I'm gon' expose the devil for what he is And that's the truth I Was living in last place But now I'm out front I just wanna speak to whoever's listening to this track right now It says in Matthew 19, vs 29 and 30 It says, for anyone who has left behind their home and property Leaving family, brothers and sisters Mothers and fathers or children For my sake They will be repaid a hundred times over And will inherit eternal life In verse 30 it says, but many who push themselves to be first Will find themselves last And those who are willing to be last Will find themselves to be first I'm telling you right now If you feel like you just been doing everything You done gave up everything And it doesn't make sense to you why It seems like everybody is being pushed to the front and you not This verse makes it very clear You been doing this because he's building your character He's doing things inside of you And He's working inside of you And He's doing things behind the scene So that way He can get his glory He'll make you first Because he knows that you'll give him his glory