paranoid

Yeah I'm doing drugs I wake myself up for the day How my shoulder shrugs when you ask if I'm okay Blacking out in clubs when you see me don't say hey Watching out above that's when you see me call the play I know there's shit I need to fix like when I don't think I exist I'm in my bag I got the tricks I lost my mind I'm doing flips I say my bad I'm fucking sick you think it's bad I'll show you this I think it's sad it's come to this I think my hearts in an abyss My family isn't well that's why I couldn't get a grip It ain't no saving by the bell like I don't want your fucking tip Like I got stories I can tell it's like I need another sip I drop a 40 on the cell and wonder why I let it rip I feel the damage to my brain it's something that I cannot handle See me walking in the rain it's like I'm looking for my ammo How I'm dealing with my pain I live my life like a soprano Lost my way don't have a main you see me drop the damn piano If you leave me then I'm flying promise that I'll follow you It's like my family's fucking dying if they do then I will too I see my mother fucking crying like this shit came out the blue I wish that I could say I'm lying this is shit I'm going through Like I know I'm not okay when I look at the way I'm living And I know I'll see the day remind myself I'm always driven This is why I'm MIA the shit I have it's never given How my mind is not at bay I'm feeling like I've finally risen I make my art no benefit I leave my mark don't mention it I'm off the chart can't render it I know I'm smart I been through it I know it's hard to get it quick I pull the card to take a pick I crash the car to show I'm sick I take it far I know the trick It's like I did too many drugs I hope that I can feel again It's like I'm always paranoid I always tend to wonder when It's like I'm scared to go annoy the people who say that they care I got an army I'll deploy wait for the sequel I'm not there I shed a tear for awful times like that's the shit that fucking made me And I live just like a mime I don't do talking fuck a maybe And I feel like I'm behind it's how I am my vision wavy And I'll know when it's my time I been in touch go call me crazy Ain't no food inside my stomach haven't ate for fucking days I'm never scared to take a plummet never scared to set the way You know that I was busy running took my time to separate It's like I'm busy fucking hunting ways that I will see my fate