Perfect Paranoia

Momo, did you hear something? Living by myself, paranoid as hell Do, yesterday's tomorrow Do, but somehow Do, I'll keep on loving you I care too much about what people think and I obsess My mental health's a mess and my safe space, my bed My mom knows when something ain't blessed, she always checks I lay her out on the table like a debt I could smoke ten zeds and my mind still wouldn't rest Still think about my ex when I swear she ain't ever in my head I don't wanna feel ungrateful cause I'm blessed I need to turn my blessings into happiness For appreciation I just struggle when my mind's f***ed I gulp when I see a text Care too much about sex can be a little intense Sucker for an incense, sucker for a tight dress Sucker for a big sesh, sucker for a big spend Sucker for a new trend, sucker for starting something I can't pretend I could ever ever end Do, but somehow I promise to do my best Living by myself Living by myself in my head Paranoid as hell I'm paranoid as hell Do, yesterday's tomorrow Do, but somehow Do, I'll keep on loving you Look, somehow I'll get there, not a place but a feeling Feeling don't have a ceiling, a feeling don't have an ending like an evening No anxiety when I wake up No regretting things I say drunk Trying to find the same buzz I love a woman who's confident without makeup Then I hide away and try and mask all of my flaws Lock them in a top drawer and hope everyone's a dwarf I guess I'm more stupid than you thought I was just as damaged as I am important These are just my thoughts in print I wonder what an athlete thinks when they've done their last sprint Or a baller when the game's up Novelist when the page's done Artist when it's taped up, a human when their day's up Really I'm about as breakable as a paper cup Same way that I'm good for the world Living by myself in my head I'm paranoid as hell Do, yesterday's tomorrow Do, but somehow Do, I'll keep on loving you