Trial By Fire

Tell me why I fell in love with you I wish it could've been different I wish that I could be someone else So I could hear that you had missed him All the decisions we make in the dark will one day find it's way to light So when they find out who you really are, are you happy with the man inside I'm Trapped in this tidal wave The Nights start to blend into days You Said you a call away But The only thing I hear is ranging They say life is what you make it Both my feet stuck in the pavement Wonder can anyone save me Lord knows I wish I could change Trial by fire I need the rain Trying my best to maintain Something's are best unexplained We was just out in the boonies The sand was my comfort I acted like nobody knew me I thought that I needed you truly Cause nothing would move me until you had did me unruly I wish I could live with this arrogance Finding myself to be someone worth cherishing Hate that I struggle with finding my clarity and always questioning people's sincerity Can't believe I was gon' ask if you'd marry me You had a shovel then you would've buried me deep Everyone wanting a sense of free will are usually bounded by secrets they keep I feel the emotions of pain and this loathing inside of an ocean I'm tryna break free I'm closing my eyes while my head in the sky But reality steadily grounding my wings Through all the clouds and the rain I see the sun as it slips away I know that I can be great But risk is what I fear to face Ahhh My back to my fate Ahhh I know that it's late Ahhh But I need to be saved Ahhh Pray I'm the one Ahhh To get out of this grave Ahhh In order fly you cannot be afraid Most of the time you're the only one that's gonna stand in your way While I see my reflection from all of this water that I use to bathe I stare in my face With tears in my eyes After all of this time I wanted to change To be the best version of me Now I finally see that some sacrifices gon' be made I sacrifice good To dare to be great I'm ditching my logic in order to let my heart be the sole focus that's guiding the way I'm turning the page today Okay Misguided by greed and treacherous things my head is on straight today Okay I let my soul sing and I let my sins speak Cause being real with the man in the mirror is how I find comfort in living with me Ahh Burn it all down