Attempted Suicide

Woke up one morning, feelin' really blue I got a chip on my shoulder and I don't know what to do Here we go again, another lonely day Wash the pain away, and every day I pray And every good memory just fades away I grip the knife like, fuck it man, today's the day To put myself in my grave, no time for a delay Stray towards a lonely way to pray Blood soaked garments, so heartless Chillin' in the depths of the darkness with the varmints So I'm on my way to heaven's gate regardless This shit you shouldn't have started with Seven motherfuckers that wanna die Attempted suicide, never undermine The divine shrine, I'm reaching out to the spirits in the sky When will y'all realize, I have some feeling losses How many times must I go through a healing process When will you realize, I had a good heart I gave and gave and gave and gave, but it Got ripped apart I try to put on blinders, but always constant Reminders This dark enclosure has the feel of trapped Coal miners Cold damp and woeful, lack of oxygen Untrusting, like those who won't buy stocks again When will they realize, I'm fuckin' cryin' out Why you think I spit venom whenever I open my mouth I'm jaded, internal flame is faded, all y'all okayed it That's why I feel so much hatred, cause y'all fuckin' made it All y'all that caused me pain does my audience Wanna name my litaneous list, that keeps me pissed in the brain So let it pour, let it pour, on life's bullshit tour Drench me with forgiveness as my soul exits the door Feeling alone, time to attempt suicide I'm telling you right now, that It is time to die Where did I go wrong My life's been fucked up Ever since I was born, I have never lucked up So it's time to take the easy way out Attempt death, cause I'm feeling really shitty My friends got me stressed Don't wanna smoke weed, tired of getting too high Wake up in the morning broke, I wonder why I look at myself in the mirror I see a bitch, so I cock back the hammer And unload the whole clip I'm a crazy motherfucker, matter of fact, I'm insane You should hear all of the thoughts going through my brain Suicidal thoughts lead to suicidal acts And suicidal visions lead to suicidal tracks Is it weird to you, the things that I say I believe that suicide is the depressed way to pray Fuck God, fuck Jesus, and fuck all the saints Yo Sick-Oh, let's hit him with that Flesruoy Llik taint Everyday I wake up and have a flashback Of the night when I wanted to crash that Fast black stolen Pontiac I just wanted to die, so I put it in drive Bumped Attempted Suicide, I'm about to collide With anything I see, start by hitting pedestrians on the street Next thing I hit will be some trees You can try all you want, but there's no rescuing me I'm trying to forever sleep see, I'm with Flesruoy Llik And our wrists will always continue to bleed We always exceed any expectations When you're ready to go, this cult will be waiting We roll with Satan, but act like God Put a noose around your head, and just nod Everybody's afraid of the terror that we bring Join us now while demons sing Feeling alone, time to attempt suicide I'm telling you right now, that It is time to die It's another bad day, stuck in mundane places I'm hating these lines I keep saying I'm faking happiness, and it's breaking me down So let's just face it, I wanna chug the cyanide You know I can't waste it, vial up to my lips And I can't wait to taste it, grip the razor blade Put it to my wrist and scrape it I'll even cut my throat, no I don't wanna make it So sick of the planet, you know I can't stand it I hate my own life, cause it's what your God demanded My hope has crash landed, so my soul feels stranded This shit's got me ill, because it's so rancid Fuck it all, it's time to blow out my jaw Shotgun brother, suicide to end it all When the brain matters, splatters, my head will paint the wall A quick shotgun blast will make my body fall Death attempted, time to end this Cause I don't even really know who my friend is I know my band's got my back But right now I'm alone, and don't know where they at I'm stressed, a nervous wreck Shit's fuckin with my head, and it just won't end Now I'm your friend that's so depressed And I'm here to represent the cult of death And I gotta tell you, maybe you don't E-X-I-S-T in society You're living life quietly, don't lie to me I know you're unhappy, not pleased so ride with me And Flesruoy Llik, violently Kill yourself to this shit, sadistic Are we sick, or just fucking gifted Feeling alone, time to attempt suicide I'm telling you right now, that It is time to die