NIGHTFALL

This morning I woke in distress Got some troublesome memories run' through my head I remember some things that I shouldn't have said And some things that was said to me effing me mentally, yeah Need to become more productive Some lifestyle habits I have are disgusting Don't have many friends cause I'm not very trusting And all this unrest in me, it gets the best of me, yeah Negative influences Got pornography stopping from reaching my visions Some fake friends that's not looking out for my interests The devil be testing me, check my integrity, yeah Gotta do right by my people I step out of line, I got problems with ego There he go, toing the line 'tween good and evil Pray God will stay blessing me, 'fore there's none left of me, yeah Remember the time when I slept well I wasn't kept up by the guilt that I felt Before I had nightmares of losing myself Now I stay up at night, protect my peace of mind, yeah Struggling with loneliness Haven't felt connected with no one in a minute It's not like it's new to me, I know I've been in it I just ain't feeling right, I'm tired of being tired, yeah Made some decisions too quickly Some emotions I let control my destiny But I never cut you off 'less it's the real me I'm sorry I didn't try, just know I didn't lie, yeah Try to be a better mentor I know I got youngins that I ain't been there for There's burdens they carried that they shouldn't have bore I'm running out of time 'fore I run out of light, yeah Thinking bout all the mistakes I made Time with the people I love I let go to waste I see it clearer now as I grow up in age Hope I find redemption, hope He grants me gifting, yeah I hope tomorrow's a better one Hoping I wake up with breath all up in my lungs Hoping that I get to hug all my loved ones 'Cause nothing is given despite all your wishes, yeah Won't be long till this all fades away 'Fore all we see is the night and we long for day Make sure that 'fore the bank close, all your dues are paid 'Fore you lose vision, you can't let your sins win, yeah So before your head hits the pillow Put up a prayer for the ones on your mental The ones that you know the Lord wants you to care for Pray God will forgive us, without Him we're drifting, yeah