Backstabbed (feat. Mikayla Hamilton)

I thought we could figure this out But then you go, and you cut me down It's funny how y'all left me for dead I've been stuck in my head, can't get out of my bed So I'm closer to living my dreams I know that everything's not what it seems Overthinking, yeah, that's typical me They're asking what's wrong, I don't know what they mean Feels like I'm losing my grip and my hype I know that nothing happens overnight Hate being cold, but it feels so right If you shot me down, I would drip out ice That's a bar and a half worth, twenty-five to life Thought about ending it the other night With hopes of my grandma standing in the light How could I ever reach the height of my favorites Without any patience, but more dedication Than anyone waiting to hop into action You think you're gonna blow up with all this rapping Look, I don't know, but we'll see what happens Can't trust my circle, cause people backstabbing But growing up is really the assassin My mouth wired shut from the writers block Like Kanye's crash, man, this shit's no bluff Stuck in the past, and I've had enough Will I ever last, or will I watch my whole world go and collapse I thought we could figure this out But then you go, and you cut me down Remember when you said you'd always be around Told me that you'd forever hold me down Guess we'll never figure this out Back when mom and dad would fight everyday I thought that shit was normal, what can I say Each fight getting more worse than the last Don't want my future to be like my past Maybe that's why I always sound violent Coming from a home that felt like a riot I don't make my music just so you can buy it I make it so you can feel my lyrics, my spirit, my soul And there's no telling how far I would go just get to the top Scared I'll be stuck at the bottom and left here to rot So I've been switching my plot Back all hunched from the weight on my shoulders Really sick of feeling dead when I am sober Life is a high with no way of closure You wanted the real, now the wait is over And I've been to hell and back one too many times One too many friends, told too many lies And it took too long for me to realize That they were never really on my side And I hate that cause I loved them But I guess now it's fuck them Can't wake them up, they sleeping They need me, I don't need them I thought we could figure this out But then you go and you cut me down Remember when you said you'd always be around Told me that you'd forever hold me down Guess we'll never figure this out