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Wake the fuck up Wake the fuck up this morning Yeah Mic check, mic check, mic check Yeah One two, one two, one two Yeah I do it for me, I do it for you Yeah Listen I know one day I won't wake up And I hope that day's tomorrow 'Cause lately my depression got me drowning in my sorrow Hate staring at my reflection cause I don't recognize The person looking back, it's like I'm wearing a disguise I despise people who don't like to apologize If you're wrong, just say so, it's okay to put your pride aside I have tried too many times to be something I'm not But your name's kettle, so don't go judging what's in my pot I smoke pot every now and then to ease the tension But I just end up showing behaviors of condescension And did I fail to mention That I think the weed's affecting my knowledge and comprehension My mind is lacking retention So some days I feel illiterate, I know I'm inconsiderate Don't give two fucks about your feelings or opinions I can't even get out my own head So why would I be worried about shit that you said And some days are more difficult than others But I don't tell a soul that it's a struggle My thoughts are hard to juggle And sometimes I'm afraid to tell my mother Mama just know I love you But dealing with you is trouble And some days are more difficult than others But I don't tell a soul that it's a struggle My thoughts are hard to juggle And sometimes I'm afraid to tell my mother Mama just know I love you But dealing with you is trouble Don't want to get out this warm bed But if I sleep all day that means that they can get ahead And you can only do that when I'm dead But I'm gonna live as long as the verses on my pad A wise woman once said that life is like a road But I am at a dead end and I don't know where to go I wish someone would see that I need saving from myself 'Cause pride's the only reason that I will not ask for help I'm dancing with my demons in the corner of my room I pump my lungs with THC I'm moving on to shrooms Wish I could go back to the days when we were kids 'Cause now I want to leave and go live off the grid I hate that I seek validation from my peers and others The same people that's gonna judge a book that's biased cover Why don't you read it maybe it's something you can discover Most people think about it but they won't go through the struggle And some days are more difficult than others But I don't tell a soul that it's a struggle My thoughts are hard to juggle And sometimes I'm afraid to tell my mother Mama just know I love you But dealing with you is trouble And some days are more difficult than others But I don't tell a soul that it's a struggle My thoughts are hard to juggle And sometimes I'm afraid to tell my mother Mama just know I love you But dealing with you is trouble