Paint Our Love Black

I called when I got home You wanted to talk How could I listen? We were so far apart Couldn't show my weakness I thought that'd I'd pushed you Out of my mind Why do you linger After all this time? I'm still sleepless Love, don't you know I understand? What we had was true, but the ground was weak You still drive me mad And I'll never forget what you meant to me Though I'd never want it back I still wish this didn't feel like a heart attack Even with no strings attached Thought our love was blue, but we painted it black I called when I got home And said I was fine, I said I'd moved on But that was a lie, But I'm still trying You moved to the west coast And I found other friends, Wake up with some punk chick's Lipstick on my neck, And feel so shameful, If I had told the truth Would've said that I was lost from trying to find you But I could not be moved The scars you left behind have made me bulletproof I wish I'd shown my face So I could show you I was hurting when you called out my name I know that I'm to blame But I'd rather be alone than have to see you in pain Babe, I'll never understand I had nothing to lose but having you by me And though I'm just a man Should've seen I was a fool for thinking I had to leave Maybe I'll see you someday And I'll tell you that my love for you has never changed Wouldn't that just be the same? I'll see you in my dreams And hope you don't fade away