Therapy

I don't wanna see a therapist I haven't been Dealing with my problems right I'd rather bury them Don't talk ever rather just pretend That's it's not a big deal and that i'm over them (I'm not over them) My girlfriend told me to explore it but I ignore it (End of story) Now she's gone because I can't control it (All alone) Keep the ball rolling I can't stop no I can't take a walk I'll get lost in it (I'll get lost in it) Self destructive tendencies come over me And it's hard to see That things that are true aren't what I believe And the people who I try to please Don't really matter in the grand scheme of things Got blood on my hands like diamond rings Heard words like a knife and now it bleeds Difference between wants and needs I know (Know) I needa let go (Let go) But I wanna hold on It's part of my soul (My soul) I confess I'm not the best (I think i'm sick) But I'm good just some rest (I'm at risk) It's just cause my rooms a mess (Help me) You might find it but nonetheless I don't wanna see a therapist I haven't been Dealing with my problems right I'd rather bury them (Bury them) Don't talk ever rather just pretend (Just pretend) That's it's not a big deal and that I'm over them (That over them) But I'm not over them no (No I'm not) No I'm not over them no no no (I don't even know what I did) (I don't know, I never know, and I never will know but I don't care anymore) Used to get glimpses of the you I remember now I get nothing There's a difference between you being here and it meaning something Told me you'd be here but you didn't mean it (You lied) You only show up when It's convenient (When it's right for you) You told me to get help but I don't need it (I don't need it) Do it myself and then it's obsoleted (Who cares?) How'd that make me feel Sad How'd that make you look Bad Took the time that we Had Now you're stuck in rehab yeah (No k- you don't understand how I feel because I do everything) (I give all the effort and It's always my fault) Look I know you want what's best for me But put your trust in me And i'll make you leave That way if I don't stick around you don't cry for me I don't wanna see a therapist I haven't been Dealing with my problems right I'd rather bury them Don't talk about it ever rather just pretend That's it's not a big deal and that I'm over them And I don't wanna see a therapist and you can't convince (No I won't go) Me to ask for help and I haven't since (I won't I won't go) Everyone up and left me because of all my sins I know that I'm not perfect but I don't deserve this (I'm not perfect) (You're such a liar I can't believe you'd say that) No I don't deserve this no (I don't care everyone else says you did) Do I deserve this no (You don't deserve me you don't deserve anything) It can't be (You're so ungrateful) It can't be (I thought you were my friend) It can be Me I'm tired of people telling me that I was the one who didn't do enough (Everybody left they're gone they're gone they're gone they're gone they're gone) That didn't go through enough And i'm tired of messing up And losing stuff can't make it up (I made them leave they're gone they're gone they're gone they're gone they're gone) It's gone can't keep a hold of love It's all up above me and I can't get it back (Yeah man I would I just don't have time I'm too busy) Can't get It back I lost it (I got everybody worried for what) Can't get it back no no no (Yeah I just haven't been myself lately that's all I'll be fine..Alright thanks...bye.) (Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Oh) And how did that make you feel? I been on the inside Roaring like a riptide Letting go of my pride Just so I could reply And this ain't even the end no this is just the reprise Let you get in my head just So you can see through my eyes Through my eyes Through my eyes Through my eyes Climb inside my mind maybe then you'll see through my eyes Through my eyes Through my eyes Through my eyes Heard sorry so many times doesn't mean anything to me now You thought I was gonna allow you to hold me down Well you're mistaken So check your trust cause people gonna break it Yeah. (Yeah Yeah Yeah) (Yeah Yeah Yeah) (Yeah Yeah Yeah)