Throwaway

I remember giving up the gory details And it left me tongue-tied (such an elementary sickness) Now I don't want to think and I don't want to feel I wasn't aware that this was part of the deal When I put my finger on a greater expectation But just my luck, I lack the patience of a statesman And all of my language will fail to convey That I'm terribly twisted around what I say And the message I threw away I don't have it now I don't have it now I don't have it now I don't have it now So I keep hiding and it only grows to hurt me But time is wasting and I'm watching it desert me I'm digging a hole and I'm making it deep And I'm starting to question the hours that I keep And the answer that I put to sleep I don't have it now I don't have it now I don't have it now I don't have it now And so I'm writing with the hope that someone's reading For all to likely runs the risk of me repeating But I don't have the guts to prevent the decay And I'm terribly twisted around what I say And the courage that I threw away I don't have it now I don't have it now I don't have it now I don't have it now