Déjà Vu

As I fall deeper into a manic state I'm a prime candidate for the gene to receive the drug addict traits Blood pressure climbs at a dramatic rate I seem to gravitate to the bottle of Nighquil then I salivate Start off with the Nighquil like I think I'll just have a taste Couple sips of that then I gradually graduate Too a harder prescription drug called Valium like ya that's great I go to take just one and I end up like having eight Now I need something in my stomach cause I haven't ate Maybe I'll grab a plate of nachos and I'll have a steak And you'd think with all I have at stake Look at my daughters face Mommy somethings is wrong with dad I think He's acting weird again he's really beginning to scare me Won't shave his beard again and he pretends he doesn't hear me And all he does is eat Dorritos and Cheetos And he just fell asleep in his car eating Three Musketeers in the rear seat Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know, feels like I been down this road before, So lonely and cold, It's like something takes over me, Soon as I go home and close the door, Kinda feels like deja vu, I wanna get away from this place I do, But I can't and I won't say I tried but I know that's a lie cause I don't And why I just don't know Maybe just a nice cold brew what's a beer That's the devil in my ear I been sober a f***in' year And that f***er still talks to me he is all I can f***in' hear Marshall come on we'll watch the game it's the Cowboys and Buccaneers And maybe if I just drink half I'll be halfed buzzed for half of the time Who's that mastermind behind that little line With that kind of rational man I got half a mind Too have another half of gla** of wine sound asinine Ya I know But I never had no problem with alcohol Ouch look out for the wall aim for the couch I'm about to fall I missed the couch and down I go looking like a bouncing ball S*** must have knocked me out cause I ain't feel the ground at all Wow what the f*** happened last night where am I Man f*** am I hungover and god damn I got a head ache S*** half a Vicodin why can't I? "All systems ready for take off please stand by" Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know, feels like I been down this road before, So lonely and cold, It's like something takes over me, Soon as I go home and close the door, Kinda feels like deja vu, I wanna get away from this place I do, But I can't and I won't say I tried but I know that's a lie cause I don't And why I just don't know So I take a Vicodin splash it hits my stomach and ahh A couple weeks go by it ain't even like I'm getting high Now I need it just not to feel sick ya I'm getting by Wouldn't even be taking this s*** if Deshaun didn't die Oh ya there's an excuse you lose proof so you use There's new rules it's cool if it's helpin' you to get through It's twelve noon ain't no harm in self inducing a snooze What else is new f*** it what would Elvis do in your shoes Now here I am three months later full blown relapse Just get high until the kids get home from two homes relax And since I'm convinced that I'm insomniac I need these pills to be able to sleep so I take three naps Just to be able to function throughout the day let's see That's an Ambian each nap how many Valium, three And that will average out to about one good hours sleep Ok so now you see the reason how come he Has taken four years just too put out an album B See me and you we almost had the same outcome Heath Cause that Christmas you know the Nomonia thing It was bologna was it the Methadone ya think Or the Hydrocodone you hide inside your pornos Your vcr tape cases with you Ambian CR great places to hide ain't it So you can lie to Hailie I'm going beddy bye Whitney baby good night Elaina Go in the room and shut the bedroom door and wake up in ambulance They said they found me on the bathroom floor Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know, feels like I been down this road before, So lonely and cold, It's like something takes over me, Soon as I go home and close the door, Kinda feels like deja vu, I wanna get away from this place I do, But I can't and I won't say I tried but I know that's a lie cause I don't And why I just don't know