Ash and Ember

Am I seeing double, am I withdrawn Depositing lyrics into a love song Spider weaving webs for a catch that won't come Am I pulling roses from a dead bush A soldier running late for the ambush Ready in the depth for a stone that's long gone Is it too late? It's never ending but nevertheless I'm the first one to second my guess And the fire in my heart came from ash and ember And every I step I take, got the devil to repay I'll never make it out alive, but I won't surrender Had to take it day by day, had to learn the hard way Like a phoenix rising up from ash and ember Ash and ember Am I reaching out for something that I can't grab Something infinitely splitting into two halves Is there something I forgot that I can't remember Am I swimming in a river that was manmade Demolishing a road that was just paved It's like trying to catch a junebug in late December Is it too late? It's never ending but nevertheless I'm the first one to second my guess And the fire in my heart came from ash and ember And every I step I take, got the devil to repay I'll never make it out alive, but I won't surrender Had to take it day by day, had to learn the hard way Like a phoenix rising up from ash and ember Ash and ember Ash and ember Have I climbed the ladder to the last rung Am I simply gonna finish where I started from Is the future just the past that I'll never outrun And every I step I take, got the devil to repay I'll never make it out alive, but I won't surrender Had to take it day by day, had to feel the heartbreak Like a phoenix I was born from ash and ember Ash and ember Ash and ember Am I stealing something I could borrow Is yesterday just waiting for tomorrow