New Eyes

In the quiet of my room I gather up my thoughts and questions Could I ever be like you? Could I ever be a person, so real and so true? It seems implausible I look at my reflection If only I could say The things I never mention The things you never knew And I'd like to thank you for the human I've become I'm sorry if I've let you down I'm trying, I'm learning as I stumble along To see this new world without your eyes Once upon a time there was a girl who so much loved the world She gave her only begotten sunshine And dried her stained eyes on a neck tie Took the best lies made 'em truths And spit sad soliloquies in the booth 'Cause people think they know but they barely knew The reality of what the other-siders do But I've been there, I've learned that Seen a whole bunch of world and done came back Got a reckoning for wrecking in my knapsack 'Bout to journey on foot through the outback GRRRL PRTY is the label on my snapback Doin' worldwide shows in a black hat 'Bout to tell your ass a story so take that Free prophecies from a black cat Seen his demise with a pair of brand new eyes It was sickening, guy Never wanted to be stickin' it to thickening thighs But now he deeper than the secrets that he keep with a lie "Mm, tastes good!" baby say with a cry Now wait Thinkin' about it too much, too much Deepen the profit sooner, sooner He never wanted to be a loser But the bruises of losing is oozing through his fingers The tips that like to brush at my hips Is now at the hilt of a sword, Lord On the battlefield, torn, sworn To never think about another lover Hopin' he had time to recover but nothing's ever easy Beware the sting of queen bee (Grr!) And I'd like to thank you for the human I've become I'm sorry if I've let you down I'm trying, I'm learning as I stumble along To see this new world without your eyes So many things in he I would like to be Wiser, more light on my feet I could look up in the mirror and change me Or right over my shoulder and save me Thinkin' about back, back when, when I ain't have nothing Not a thing or a ring to my name Now my feet in the game, knee deep, don't speak Feelin' like Gwen Stefani in this thing But I can't complain 'cause we asked for this Feelin' like a workaholic or a masochist Don't call like I should like it's sacrilege To make a dollar in a dream into packed venues Take a second, put your shield down Laying down my sword, getting off the battlefield now Makin' bigger moves, bigger pictures in my view now Get up out of my way I've got ammo for days, pow! I can feel the weight of wars you've lost They're victories in my eyes Every swing you take brings me closer and closer Open the gates and I'm poised to charge You told me we'd never get this far Now we at the final round There's no way we'll escape battle scars Battle scars And I'd like to thank you for the human I've become I'm sorry if I've let you down I'm trying, I'm learning as I stumble along To see this new world without your eyes