Burning Memories

Yeah, this one's for the mama that I never knew (never knew) I took acid just to burn all of my memories of you I guess now I really wanna know the truth How'd you leave your only child at nine for another dude? Took that pain and punched my father in the stomach 'til he bled Hit the store and stole a 40 and took that shit to the head All the years that you ignore me left me sleepless in the bed I hope daddy got some kids because your only son is dead My revenge, got it in the end (in the end) I'm so hard to reach, you won't see me again (me again) I spent twenty years waiting on the stairs Now I'm finished thinkin' anyone'll ever hear these prayers If I die before I wake, smoke me out of Heaven's gate Bring me back to life on Sunday, pour me up the Devil's drink Wake up, go to work on Monday, grind it out for seven straight You showed me that just because we're blood don't mean we relate All my dark days came in the summer All my thoughts changed, now I'm a loner Everything stayed, you were the runner Watch the train go away through the tunnels Hold up, stack my money up just for a rainy day Play wit' MGK and I will pull up where you stay (yeah) I die for my brother, I don't have nothin' to say (no) I died when my baby mama told me I was fake (damn) I got real shooters, they ain't worried 'bout a case (whoa) I got people talkin', but won't say shit to my face (yeah) AST for life, my opps are rolling in they grave (damn) See me doin' good, I put that work in like a slave (work) Up all night, mind cloudy don't be spooked If I show you love, then will you always tell the truth? (Truth) Feel like I'm goin' crazy, couldn't trust no one but you Suicidal thoughts keep tellin' me, "Jump off the roof" If I die tonight, no, I ain't got nothin' to prove CSI gon' say we was the realest in the room Fuck with mine, I kill 'cause I got everything to lose Fuck a mama, you know what I'll do (yeah) If I die before I wake, smoke me out of Heaven's gate Bring me back to life on Sunday, pour me up the Devil's drink Wake up, go to work on Monday, grind it out for seven straight You showed me that just because we're blood don't mean we relate All my dark days came in the summer All my thoughts changed, now I'm a loner Everything stayed, you were the runner Watch the train go away through the tunnels The memories (whoa) keep playin' on repeat (yeah) I burn 'em all so I can start sleepin' (whoa) And now they're back, I make it good (yeah) I wouldn't change the past if I could (whoa) These memories, they won't get the best of me (yeah)