Solitude

Watch me cut my tongue out of my mouth, because I love you No more stupid words can leak out I walk around my house in my bear feet and dead silence and listen to the stairs squeak Bumping around, the lights off, in the dark In may silverware drawer where I'm feeling knives and forks I get the sharpest utensil I can find or maybe just a pencil to grind Lead poisoning in my mouth But any thing I can find is to cut my tongue out So I could stop all the stupid things I say and music will probably change my wicked ways Smile with my blood stained teeth Just talk with my hands when it's time to scream A butter knife, started sawing at my gums Chewing on some stainless steel till my mouth gets num and then, and then... I take a jab at my tonsils, the center consol Now I'm spitting out chipped teeth no relief Will this chill me, to stop those lives I mislead I let the world watch my mouth bleed Now I cut my tongue, it's only hanging by a little piece of meat but I try not to wake my family when there asleep I get some rusty scissors and now I'm trying to cut this thing out It's like the bad it's always curios about the good and there's no doubt that the cured it's always curious about the bad still trying to cut my tongue out with every cut I try not to wake my daughter up I'll end up a babbling idiot with my lips sown up Haven't found a way to kill me yet or take this animal away to the vet they come from far to spit on me and all this time the good stays curious but the bad stays furious cut my tongue out. but by this time I'm dizzy and nauseous Slitting with a knife as obviously cautious kitchen tile now it's all full of spit and blood see, but I try not to slip away I creep back the stairs and go to sleep I wash the blood of my face and lay my head on my pillow case I've succeeded Watch me cut my tongue out of my mouth because I love you so no more stupid words leak out, no one above you I will never amount to nothing if I can speak It's tongue and cheek, it's tongue and cheek