My First Day

Sometimes I write about something, that like something I went through Or something my people went through And I felt like they needed some motivational shit And it usually ends up going something like this My first day, without you in my life Things felt strange, a bit deranged Even so, I hope you're doin okay Take it slow, you just never know ( just never know, oh!) Yo, you just never know no (just never know, oh!) You just never know no (just never know, oh!) My systems caught in conniption, stomach in knots Feedin for my medicine, overcoming addiction The first step is quittin, nah the first steps admittin I got a problem, I need help, this is something I can't beat myself I almost felt like I can't be cured Rehab won't take me 'cause I ain't insured Layin in the bath tub, shakin like a new born Searchin for the courage it'll take for me to move on I've been livin life like this way too long Beggin God please, bring me home I stopped before, three or four days Always end up back in the same place People call me a junkie, dope fiend How they gonna judge me, they don't even know me Lights off, want to be left alone, I'm tryin to enjoy the methodone Put a Jimi Hendrix record on, and excuse me while I kiss the sky Dosed off, woke up, sick to my stomach, ran to the bathroom Started to vomit, the methodone wore off and the withdrawal started That first day was the hardest Sometimes I write about something, that like something I went through Or something my people went through And I felt like they needed some motivational shit And it usually ends up going something like this Stayed strong, endured the rough weather I ain't fully recovered but I'm doin much better I can keep my food down to shakes and calms They lowerin the doses of methodone I eat V's and blow lots of dro It's like chewin gum when you're tryin not to smoke Keep my mind occupied, calm my nerves It's not the same high, deep inside I... Just want one more but I can't turn back this week for it But I done made it, almost a month With just a couple of V's and I blew some blunts But that weed and gonna make me OD That other shit was gonna kill me Six weeks, and everything seem so clear Before I knew it, time flew and I was clean for a year Can't believe something started off socially Something I almost allowed to take over me Days went by and it was sixteen months And I swear to God I didn't fall off once I, feel like a brand new guy and I'm definitely livin a brand new life Some days I still resist the thirst but none's worst than the first (believe that) Sometimes I write about something, that like something I went through Or something my people went through And I felt like they needed some motivational shit And it usually ends up going something like this Two years and I ain't touched it Got a lot done, I been so productive Rebuilt, I was so constructive Can't believe I was so self destructive Got a good job and I make big bucks Went to the lot and got a new pick up Got a brand new crib and a brand new kid I think anybody can quit if I did If you want to quit, get up and go get the shit Walk straight to the toilet, drop it, flush it, fuck it, fight it Just resist it and if this helps then just keep listenin When you start slippin I'll send you another one Sonny, wasup?, we just saved another one I know it's so hard like there's no God But through him you're able to go so far Hey, I don't want to sound corny I'm just like you either hungry or horny Seems as though we get hooked so easily Quitting becomes an impossibility I ain't sayin treat your body like a church Just don't let dope put your body in a hearse The streets inside you, you just gotta search And know that no day be harder than the first Sometimes I write about something, that like something I went through Or something my people went through And I felt like they needed some motivational shit And it usually ends up going something like this Yo, all my people, goin through they thing Whatever they thing may be Just know, God got his hands on you And he'll grant you the serenity To change the things you can't And you can change that, aight Hold me down and I'ma hold you down... one