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It's now no secret that I think I'm weak
Some may disagree but they would be wrong
I can't lie a struggle of mine
Is to loathe what I know I am most of the time
Flatmates are great if you've got a good one
But I share a room and a soul and a face with
A guy I hate that I can't escape
You relate? Must it be this way?
I don't really buy into the self-esteem scene
But don't worry too much about me
I wanted  this line to have a poetic aesthetic
And it might be pathetic that I googled these rhymes
But I guess all I really gotta say this time is that I am fine
I'm OK

It's just that
There are things about me that I cannot accept
But at getting rid of them I seem inept
If I can't accept them shouldn't they be a part of my past?
How do they last?
I say I want 'em behind me
But is that really true?
Or do I just tell myself that since I know destroying them is what I should do?
I think it's a little of both
A tug a pull
Conflicting desires causing turmoil
So why can't I get the victory I seek?
Cause I am me and I am weak
I am me and I am weak
How can I be strong?
Where can I gain strength?
From where does it come?
Except from pain
War makes strong men
Maybe that's why I war with them
The other Mes I mean I really am my own worst enemy
I'm pretty lazy
And I don't fight hard
Cause the consequences are low
I've not incurred a single scar
My life's too easy
I've got no weights to lift
They say life's not easy
But mine kind of is
I don't have to find any success

Cause if I only give
Fifty percent there's still food in my fridge
If I just laze around and watch some Netflix
Nobody suffers no one gets hurt
The consequences will only be seen in the future
Nothing ever makes me grit my teeth
And push right through
And face defeat
And push it down
And beat it up
Nothing really hard really even ever comes up
Everything I've got it's all surplus
I've never been hungry
Never been thirsty
Never even ever really been hurt physically or emotionally
Not in the ways that others have
None of the cards I've had have been that bad
Great home life good relationships
Lots of support and cushy existence
Even the tough stuff for which I have toughened up
Ain't that rough of stuff
I've not really had that tough of luck
It's not like fighting in a world war
Where one has killed millions and is trying to take over the  whole world
I've never had to stand up and fight for any of my beliefs
I've never had a mother or father or sister or brother leave me
In death
Everything has gone right for me
Still I complain boy am I weak
I don't know the meaning of difficult
I don't the meaning of pain
All I know is the ease of it all
And all I know is the feeling of shame
I don't know the feeling of doing something hard
I don't know the feeling of everything around me falling apart
All I know is peace and security
All know is I am me and I am weak

I would say I stop when things start to hurt
But I'm so afraid of pain I always avert
When the path I'm on is leading to that bridge
Long before I ever even feel a twinge
I catch it in my subconscious mind
In the whimper in the middle of pull up number one
In the snooze button
I hit too many times
In the episodes I watch too late at night
In the confrontations I avoid even though
It would grow
A relationship or maybe even save a soul
In the work that I say I want to do
To finally finish and release these tunes
That I always avoid and do not do
To my best 'cause it gets tough and I lose focus

Snowboarded for the first time a little while back
Most falls didn't hurt but a couple did in fact
Gave myself a good scrape and a pretty good bruise
But I got back up again and then I tightened my shoes
I went again in spite of the potential abuse
Nothing to brag about
No great accomplishment
But it felt good to get hurt and not just abandon ship
I am me and I am weak
But there is a little something in me
I'm not incapable of success
Not with the Lord my God on my side
And the ways that I'm blessed
I don't want to ignore skills He's given me
Just to claim some humility
I don't even have that anyways
At least not enough to merit praise
I say I am me and I am weak
That's the truth you see
But I also say that who I am is not who I am
But that my identity is in Christ the lamb
I am me and I am weak
But that's the excuse I seek
I let myself remain in weakness since it's what I am
But I've been saved by Christ from being damned

Cause if I'm just weak
Is it my responsibility?
I give myself a pass just cause strength doesn't come easily
The failures in my character can barely be seen oh no
Their consequences may never be known
But they are there and I if remain weak
They will most definitely someday be shown
How do I balance my nature as a fallen man
With God's strength in me?
How do I reconcile God's control and the fact that I'm still so weak?
I ask for strength but it hasn't come
But I haven't taken action
So am I dumb?
If my desires align with his he will gladly acquiesce
But if I ask and do not seek
Do I really even want that thing?
Confusion threatens to overwhelm
If this were a ship I might be tempted to say Jesus take the helm
I am me and I am weak
But I must take responsibility
I did so for my sin when I was saved
Now I gotta keep it up to gain some strength
I am me
And I am weak
But I am blessed
I've transgressed
But won't be assessed
By my own best
For that my gratitude cannot be expressed
I've no right to be depressed
Thanks to Christ eternal life I posses
In Him alone I've forgiveness of my debts
For Him I pleased to keep on the fight
Because I am me and I am Christ's
Maybe I need to stop writing songs in second person
Maybe I shouldn't say that u r me but that I am me
Cause if I'm not me I've got no responsibility
But the things I do aren't somebody else
It's all me
I have to take responsibility
I am me
I may be weak
But I am me
It's no mystery
I am me
I am me

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