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Might just be the Grinch cause I'll steal your heart like gifts then break it
All my vibes I'm faking
Bouncing off you because I'm vacant
Wish I could've changed it
Honestly wish I could've changed me
When I try I always start aching, hands feeling shaky
Panic from the trust then I have to zip it up
To keep myself safe
To keep myself rot

Bring flowers with my soul to your doorstep
Spill my guts on the floor let me be sad
My life is a chore and that is that
I only want you more which means that
If I can't feel for me then I can't feel for you
And it only hurts because I wanna love you
But I can't and I don't know why
God I wish I could fucking cry f*ck
Wish I could change the past
If I'm really kinda being brash
I've been backstabbed
By lovers and loved ones who all lied alike all my life
F*ck I might
Be the grinch 'cause I'll steal your heart like gifts then break it
No matter how pretty, how silly, how fucking lovely you are to me
We won't make it

Kill yourself
Cut yourself
Kill yourself
Cut yourself
Kill yourself
Cut yourself
Kill yourself
Cut yourself
Kill yourself
Cut yourself
Kill yourself
Cut yourself

Feel so alone I
Feel so alone I
Feel so alone I
Feel so alone I
Feel so alone I
Feel so alone I
Feel so alone I
Feel so alone I
Feel so alone I
Feel so alone I
Feel so alone I
Feel so alone I
Feel so alone I
Feel so alone I
Feel so Alone (está muy oscuro aquí)

What the hell is wrong with me
I feel so lost, so who is me
I feel so empty in my mind
I want to take it out and die
Feel so alone these nights
I feel like I never even lived to begin
Who am I? I should end it
What do you want from me
I can never make you happy
I'm sorry but it's all I can be
It's who I am, not sorry
Manipulate me, watch me fall into the creek
I know you hate me
So watch how hateful I can be

You are worth nothing
F*ck you
You are with nothing
F*ck you
You are worth nothing
F*ck you
You are worth nothing
F*ck you
You are worth nothing
F*ck you
You are worth nothing
F*ck you
You are worth nothing
F*ck you
You are worth nothing
F*ck you

Alone
Alone
Alone
Alone
Alone
Alone
Alone
Alone
Alone
Alone
Alone
Alone
Alone
Alone
Alone
I am alone
I am alone
Alone
Alone
Alone
Alone alone
We live our lives alone and
We will all die alone and
We live our lives we're all alone
Alone, alone
We're all alone
We're all alone
We're all alone
We're all alone
We're all alone
We're all alone
Alone, alone, alone
Alone
Alone
Alone
Alone we're all alone
Alone
Alone

I can't
I can't
I can't
I can't
I can't feel this pain anymore
I now feel insane more and more
I take this blade to my skin
And I bleed
I bleed
I can't feel the sways of love anymore
The ghost never comes to my brain anymore
I deserve to be alone
Alone
There's no reason to think anymore
Give in take a drink then drink more and more
Can't help but feel I've been here before alone
Alone
Alone
Alone
Alone
Alone
Alone
Alone
(Millions are dead because you lied)
(My friends are dead because you lied)
(You need to apologize, apologize)

Yeah, yeah, yeah
I'm dead like death my nigga
Can't feel my chest or rest my nigga (f*ck)
I really wanna think less my nigga
Wishing life was more painless my nigga (f*ck)
Feel like my heart is cold
Feel like I should be bones
I feel like my soul is old my nigga
But this is the path I chose
Can't remember why I'm still pathing streets I roam

They say there's no place like home
But any place feels more like home than home
I think I need a new place to go I think I need a new home
Think I need to find new bros
Maybe I should buy new clothes
Maybe I should end it all
Maybe I should throw my phone
F*ck

I can't think right
And honestly I can't sleep at night
No use in putting up a fucking fight
No point to life if we fucking die
They don't care if you fucking cry
They don't care if I suicide
It don't affect them so really they couldn't even care for my fucking life

You only worth what you make
You only worth what they think
You only worth feeling hate
You only feel what they say
You only are what you think
They're clouding your mind so you sink
Deeper into the pits of the fucking drink
Till you become pissed and you hate
And the cycle repeats every fucking day

Just wanted to record a quick message
Just to show that I don't give a f*ck about any of these niggas
I don't give a f*ck about none of you niggas
I don't give a f*ck about any of you bitches
I'm on my own
I said I'm on my own
I don't give a f*ck
I don't give a f*ck
Yeah yeah

Now you know about me
So leave me the f*ck alone and never talk to me again
All y'all niggas bitch ass niggas
Keep me the f*ck away

My neck feel strain
My head is spinning
Thinking too much bitch
I'm overloading off the stains
Like bloody paints
Can't pretend my canvas ain't been the same
Dinner plate
Eating truth up with my doubts
On the side
Psych I lied, I ain't ate since I ain't happy with my life

She's fucking up my seems (wait f*ck)
Ancient thoughts that screams (why)
All my friends are fake (die)
I could die right now (I will)
They won't make a sound (no)
Pages wrote of how (no)
I've been feeling now (no)
I lay you to sleep with me inside your dreams

Replaced and killed again
Rebound then left again
Get clean then cut again
Be mean and die again
Replaced and killed again
Rebound then left again
Get clean then cut again
Be mean and die again

I can't trust none of you fuckers
Ima die make sure you outed as busters
Blood of my soul on your hands
Skin moldy black I rot as I stand
I can't trust none of you fuckers
Ima die make sure you outed as busters
Blood of my soul on your hands
Skin moldy black I rot as I stand

So why do I try
I just fucking hate my life
All the stars in the sky
Make me feel like a lie
So why do I try
I can't even go outside
She has her hands gripped tight
My soul fades from my eyes
From my eyes

Why do I try anymore
I just wanna die some more
All the hope that she gives me makes my eyes sore
I can't sleep in the night watch the timing soar
I keep my wrist like a tally to add up the score
So why do I try
I just fucking hate my life
All the stars in the sky make me feel like a lie
I can't even go outside
She has her hands gripped tight

Yellows back but
Black seems lost
Black cut back to days when he was gone
Life is changing no one can stop
We'll be forgotten like those of old
Building of grass and house of mold
The winds grows strong and the waves are bold
Don't cry now there's no point in being sad
Trees that sway like words in the breeze
Nothing matters not even the bees

Yellow cut back from the wrist to the elbow
Black cocked back and sent himself to hell oh
We'll be forgotten like those of old
Buildings of grass and house of mold

Devils eye
Devils eye
Mmm-Mmm
Mmm-Mmm

I'm married to the devil bitch keep satan on my fucking ring
Got demons strapped up on my wrist they never have abandoned me
This life a loan and happiness is just inside your fantasy
Let truth seep in and realize just how fucked up life can really be

How fucked up life can really be
All you do is you assume that you is who's way better than me
Destiny, empathy we all die eventually
Why should I cry loss of life when we all die eventually

Devils eye
Devils eye
Mmm-Mmm
Mmm-Mmm

Married to the devil bitch keep satan on my fucking ring
Demons stay strapped to my wrist they'll never ever abandon me
Cause when there's no one left and knowing
You can't trust your family
You turn inward cause you yourself yeah you can never ever leave

But what happens when that's not safe anymore
What happens when you're not safe anymore
What happens when trying to stay becomes a chore
What happens when the demons preach to kill yourself more
And then the end will come and you will repeat the cycle once more
Repeat it all once more

Manipulate
Amputate
Waste away
Such a mistake

I feel emotions of missing attention mistaken for remnants of missing affection
Try all you'd like but results are resentment
Used like some new shoes I'm better off not mentioned
I say I love you and I really mean it
But then 

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