Traumatic Blessing
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Okay I think I still love my ex This ain't a confession to green texts Just a coming to grips with a mess I haven't heard from her in months and years And I don't plan to ever again I wish her all the best And the best for my ears I'm trying to be sincere I got all these tears laid up And they getting knocked down by my fears I smear them and move on that's how I was raised But I fear that if I stay here I'll just stay afraid I can't lie to you, I I can't lie to you I'm broken I'm pouring, I'm pouring, I'm pouring My liquor inside my eyes I'm praying, oh I'm praying that it don't burn this much next time i'm living for myself tonight I was new to this love game And so was she She only kissed one man And that's only cuz she was too nervous to kiss me Could've got there earlier but I didn't But it still played to my ego it didn't really make a difference I was deranged without suspicion When I got in the temple I was winning Got all the treasure, prizes, menthol I was addicted Without any conviction Robbery in broad daylight Snobbery got me all the way right Pride, gotta Get out the way right now My Hyde showed more when push comes to shove Not my true colours But I had blue and green tints gushing from my red blood Nothing feels better than to feel true love Until that love stops feeling enough Love really is a drug I think im in love with my ex But I think I was in love with the sex I was stressed I was blessed Any reason to see you undressed I was astonished at your beauty But I pimped that butterfly Whenever it would suit me And that guilt made me wanna shoot me Bitter if my dick got blue I was dying of thirst We were constantly crying together too But I always came first When I left I said I choose me When the whole time I chose her loosely Asking questions like who's me I'm pouring, I'm pouring, I'm pouring My liquor inside my eyes I'm praying, oh I'm praying that it don't burn this much next time i'm living for myself tonight When push came to shove, I left It as it was Sick of the noise and intensity this type of love was too much I was Tired and vacant I needed a vacation But I left too early and had no money to stay adjacent A void remained Desperation played my emotions Pornhub stimulated but loneliness motivated my motions So If anyone wanted me you know they had me So You know they had me Loved up again in hurt Forced myself to move on Thinking I'd get my groove on But they weren't her But the longer I stayed the more dirt I had on my shoulder But I had the courage to throw away the boulder This is Sisyphus' problem I was stuck on this hill Fuckin to fill a hole This hole seems to be solved But apparently I live with moles This girl wasn't my type Lockdown got me down locked Blocked and eventually got her knocked up That's when I clocked up, and stopped But I didn't I just got angry, kept fucking relentless I was again addicted What was meant for us? I was 17 and I felt I was meant to rust All my plans fell to dust All because we met to bust I wanted love and I got it But I didn't reciprocate it I think that's rather ironic I'm gonna drink without the tonic Vodka n more shots Spotchka mandalore watching Anything to get me away From more something Would've killed myself if I wasn't scared to see god Judgement on my soul, sanity got me lost Was I a product of my intake Or was I supposed to be this way I don't know but I like to think I had a good heart Misunderstood the art of people Cuz I doodled, stribbled on them and restarted when disheartened People are the canvas of me The way i treat them shows the reflection of me But maybe god would've killed me already But I ask Why did he make me? But I digress I'm pouring, I'm pouring, I'm pouring My liquor inside my eyes I'm praying, oh I'm praying that it don't burn this much next time I'm living for myself tonight Got a baby on the way, Life on distortion Not ready or stable Regrettably praying for an abortion Hoping she'll be able But once again I was forcing I was so scared I was waiting and escaping an orphan Again, I fell onto childish habits I was scared I couldn't fight for a life that's wild n lavish Dignity seemed famished Family rabid, manic and cannot have it Embarrassed, and managed to get my pride and stabbed at it Forever still mad at it Would've left to Manhattan if I was good at planning Would've gone van Staten if I didn't have a plan in action But obviously, the plan was for me This is my life, my goals, I get one None redone, I live for fun Autism kept from thinkin any different Excuses excuses The plan was that No chance im changing Not for kids Stuck in my key Gotta change for the lock But shit just give me a minute please Your Loss Your Loss Nearly 2 years later you could say I owe a couple favours Fruits of my labour has grown And fatherhood has been a saviour My love for life has shown mercy Been given love, given it back n vice versa But I lost it, in search of my purpose, I rotting inside that cell I went blind Another attempted murder But I guess you already heard that earlier On track 5 My mind has been on my mind For the kindness of my child My mind's been on my work It's blue, But I hope she don't think I've been exiled My daughter is nearly 2 Used to be scared to play the fool But my family changed me to eco And now she's my fuel I used to be so selfish, I knew it too It's hard to understand I'm not the only man on the moon More of a crab on the dune I was working my 12 to 12 job Earning for uni Ordinary day on the bar Till I saw my ex hop out her boyfriends car She had no nine inch nails But I was feeling all johnny cash I dunno what could've been worse But it seemed to me i was in search Cuz I served her Unlike i used to Nerves strangled my heart But during her stay The grip lightened As I reminisced about how I got to this point enlightened My story didn't start with her But this love was birth out of hurt And was the catalyst for growing Fists in the air I'm throwing With comfort of knowing My God is truly showing I'm sorry I didn't appreciate the gift when I was given But i now understand the mission I hope all is forgiven If my ex didn't kill me with stress My baby wouldn't be right here right now hugging me to death This butterfly effected me straight from the cocoon But it's bold of me to assume every Journey ends so soon So that's why i still love my ex It's a deeper thought and expression It was a lesson cuz i was caught without any idea of protection Is it selfishness or helplessness The fact still remains This traumatic blessing Has kept me in frame
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Written by: James Collet, Kodi Evans-Carter
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