The Last Three Years

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The Lufian Project

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It all started when I left my mumma's house in 017
I moved in with my friend, he lent me some green
And some coke to try and get my money float
Tryna make it as an adult on my own but I felt so alone
So I gazed at my phone, I met a girl on Instagram
But man, I've already had my heart broken
But this girl was open, deep with emotion
The only problem was she was way across the ocean
In Johannesburg, but she was weird and a nerd
That's my type of chick so I took the trip
I went out to see her, had to know if this was real
I saw her, couldn't believe her, we went camping in the hills
Had the best two weeks of my life, took shrooms in the night
I realised some stuff and made room for her life
Thought I fell in love, asked her to move to the UK
That's where it all changed, huh
(Talking)
So she moved in with me, everything was magical
For a few weeks then I started to see
All the things that made me fall in love with her were false
She lied cos she liked me man, it turned me cold, see
What would you do if you were sat in my position
Where you've risen money so your honey can be with your living
But you feel like you're in prison cos you're working for the system
For a girl that's fucking fibbing and the house's condition was fucked
Which made things worse of course
There was holes in the ceiling, I was peeling up the floor
Had to force my love to this girl, she couldn't leave for a few more months
She was dependent on me
I had to leave my job, it made me too suicidal
So I had to sell everything I owned for survival
At this point our relationship was dead, so she left me on my own
With a mind full of regret
(Talking)
So now I'm homeless, nowhere to go
But my mumma let me stay in her garden for the summer
And for that I love her, my stepdad too, he helped me move to my new flat
So I could bring myself back
Step by step, I was looking for myself
So I thought what the hell, went travelling through Spain
Got some answers, felt normal again
I came back, so did my friends, what are the chances
I was back on track at the start, but my heart could relax
I wasn't heartbroken and I had my own home
I was dealing with the fact that I was alone
I was eating healthy, doing yoga, really in my zone
Started socialising again, went drinking with my friends
As we approached the end of the year, it was Christmas Eve
At the pub, I saw a girl with pink hair
Do I dare go near, of course I did, here I go again
(Talking)
But I went with the flow and a few months go by
Then I woke in the night, had a dream and it showed me
Screaming at her please, why did you do it
Didn't know what she'd done, but her drinking pursued it
She was trying to stop her ways but addiction overtakes
And I liked her so I stayed, she took a holiday
Before she left, she gave me her love
I said I love you too, while I gave her a hug
I thought please let this work this time, it went some time
We done some facetimes, everything was fine
I was finally happy, more than I've been in years
But then came my biggest fear, the dream that brung me tears
I woke up in the morning to a text from her
Saying that she's had sex with another guy in his bed
The walls caved in, my heart fell out my chest
Acting a mess, went back to thinking about death
(Talking)
You need to stop drinking
So a month goes by and we talk and decide
That she would go to meetings to stop her drinking
But every time she went out I thought she was cheating
She would get drunk, mood switch and be deceiving
One night I had enough, got so angry I punched my hand through a window
Blood went all over the kitchen
I felt like a bitch when she said, if I made a sound
She would stab herself with the glass on the ground
So I sat there in silence with blood filling up a towel while she gave me abuse
I know it was the booze but I gotta be honest
First it was my dad
Now I'm here tryna get love for another alcoholic
Not long after this we called it quits, it came to an end
My heart into bits once again
The lesson that I've learnt in all this shit
Is that I need to fix myself and not be with girls that need to be fixed

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