Letter To Self

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It's your boy RaSean
I ain't gonna do too much on this one
Just putting pen to paper
Thinking out loud, really
You know

I was just thinking
And I decided to write a letter
Hopefully you'll see it
And you'll open it
And you'll feel better

You're always in your head
So I just grabbed a piece of paper
Here's a letter to myself
Hopefully you'll see some things later

Dear me
Probably sound weird for you to hear this
Reading back my own thoughts
It's like an out of body experience

Or at least that's what it feels like
Cause sometimes it don't feel right
Letting my thoughts conduct themselves
I'm like a visitor in my own mind

And you're no stranger to battle
You've had as many as your blessings
Dodging death since your conception
Now that's heavenly protection

And nothing shall win or prosper
Neither enemy nor their weapon
You must got a calling on your life
Thank God above in heaven

And thank God for momma
She was strict and it's good you listened
She kept you out of trouble
So that you wouldn't become a statistic

Dodged more bullets than kids should see
More blood shed than capacity
Now you downplay what you survived
When others shed tears just listening

That's not good
You're desensitized
in more ways than one
There's a reason you should laugh
After coming face to face with a gun
You were young
As a matter of fact you still are

Putting so much weight on your shoulders
I'm surprised you ain't crushed under the bar

But thankfully that's sports
Unfortunately scoliosis
But God had a plan
That's how music became your focus

You were young, talented, and gifted
But placed your worth on accomplishments
Cause how else would you receive love and attention
Without proving you deserved it

Can't even accept compliments
Cause you never feel that you've earned it
Anytime you were given a gift
You tried to find a way to return it

Worked so hard to be flawless
Cause you're nothing if not perfect
Plus anytime you messed up
There was someone making sure you heard it

You taught yourself what a man is
Because no other man did
Decided to be an example
Of what you were never granted
Stand in, commit, don't submit, just win
And never let them see what's within,
Just win
But when you lose, don't forget

And don't live with regret
And always demand respect

Don't lose, don't cry, be tough, that's it

Don't wear your heart on your sleeve
Or someone will break it again
And don't accept help from anyone
Cause that makes you less of a man

You convince yourself you're weak
For being vulnerable or showing emotions
Plus if you share, they won't care
Or worse, you'll be a burden

That's detrimental and that's toxic
But who's to tell you any different
So half smiles and anger
Where your only two expressions

You overthink so much
That you struggle in peace and quiet
Always saying, "I'm good"
But half the time you really be lying

You've got scars
And it's okay for you to admit that
Neglecting a bruise won't make you forget
Where you got hurt at

You're your own biggest critic
And you're tough on yourself, I get it
But you harbor a lot of shame and condemnation
When you're convicted

So high on your standards
You acting like you're better than God
He forgives you but you can't forgive yourself
Now tell me that ain't odd

Let God work on you
And get out of your own way
You don't understand what he's doing now
But you'll look back one day

And what you feel right now
The discomfort is growing pains
Gotta acknowledge your wounds
So they can heal the right way

So when you read these words
Just know that they're constructive
A poem, a rhyme, a rap
They ain't the only ways to be expressive

You can trust other people
Don't rely on just yourself
Give yourself some grace
And tend to your inner health

And share what you feel within
It's okay to share a tear
No matter how long it's been
Five days, or in your case five years

Cherish these people that God brought into your life
And trust God to turn all your lows into your highs

And it's okay to love
No matter how much you've been hurt
Tell someone I love you
But tell it to you first

Sincerely yours truly
I just went and wrote this letter
Hopefully you'll see it
And you'll open it and feel better
And I hope it all makes sense
And that you catch some things that matter
If not, just keep reading
And read along with me this prayer

Dear Heavenly Father

I just want to thank you
Because more than anything I am
I'm blessed and highly thankful

I submit these things to you
Acknowledging all my wounds
Only you can heal them
So I put my trust in you

Help me to be a man
With a heart after your own
So I can help myself and others
And bring glory to your throne

Thank you for your blessings
And your gifts and your plan
I thank you for my life

In Jesus' name, amen

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