Suicide Letter
Ominous the Monster
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Uh, hmm So I was just sitting here and I was thinking About everybody, I guess Alright Eliasar said that he got me for life Bought me some blank CDs and a mic I often think about the video with Dice Sixteen making us laugh all night Sarah used to be my biggest supporter I don't really know what I did wrong You can tell that it bothers me I keep bringing it up every song I'm shook that my little cousins are grown Man, they used to be my shadow I would smile in their face and sing a little song while secretly fighting this battle Depression always comes and goes But in the packed room, I am all alone I'm pretty sure when my grandma King died that's exactly when the family broke Not at first, but you know how time works I cried silently until my eyes hurt Thinking, like, why I ain't die first Stephanie saw me cry writing my verse I wonder what Doug's up to and how he's been Had a dumb fight and that's how it ends I got his daughter tattooed on my right arm She got a special place on my skin Lil Zar died and I didn't blink An eye had a hate love thing, but that's still my guy And Jacob, I hope everything's alright I should reach out, but got too much pride Even feelings I share with my grandma Joan ain't the same whenever I see her She's honestly the most genuine person I know Such a beautiful creature I feel shame when I hug her I know that I'm distant A smile brings relief and you know that it's instant And I know that she won't live forever I just hope one day that she'll forgive me I don't know if I turn my back on them or if they turn their back on me We ain't never had much, but we had each other We fucked up, but we family And my mother's an angel I put her through hell somehow She was always smiling I remember when I stole the rent money off the table and I kept on lying I remember when I walked in her room It was dark She was all alone and she was crying She said, what is wrong with you What do you need from me, son I promise I'm trying And that vision alone always sticks with me Acting like hurting my family ain't shit to me Something's wrong in my head It ain't a Why the f*ck I'm so comfortable with misery Self-medicate until I'm numb to it If the drugs don't work, then a gun'll do it All this pain in my heart, it keep running through me On the edge of the bed like I'm finna do it I don't wanna feel this pain no more This life ain't for me I keep saying there's no heaven I guess I'll find out shortly I apologize to both my kids I'm truly sorry Choice, Ruuch, Smurf, and Tony tell them beautiful stories And my baby brothers, you know I love y'all, dawg I'm proud for real I guess I should've picked my phone up Told y'all how I feel If there is a pearly gates, I'll wait on y'all You know I will And Stephanie, just know I love you even when I'm not here I don't wanna feel this pain no more This life ain't for me I keep saying there's no heaven I guess I'll find out shortly I apologize to both my kids I'm truly sorry Choice , Ruuch, Smurf, and Tony tell them beautiful stories And my baby brothers, you know I love y'all, dawg I'm proud for real I guess I should've picked my phone up Told y'all how I feel If there is a pearly gates, I'll wait on y'all You know I will And Stephanie, just know I love you even when I'm not here
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