Shut Up (Late Night Depression)

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Jenna May

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Why do I let me hate myself?
Can’t I muster any kind of energy to tell my depression to shut the hell up?

I make plans for what I wanna do, what would be fulfilling, and what would make me feel good about myself and then
It’s just in theory and half the day’s gone ‘cause I slept in and, I think I’ll do these things tomorrow and then it’s the weekend, and
Well it’s the weekend, so there shouldn’t necessarily be work to do
Oh but it’s a cycle and I don’t know what to do, ‘cause I can’t get myself to do the things I want to
Oooh
At what point do you lose who you really are? And does that mean that maybe you weren’t really that person at all?
I feel so small
But I remind myself it’s just chemicals in my brain
If I wasn’t depressed then I’d be doing all this stuff and, I’m sure I’d be so happy
But also, if I wasn’t depressed, would I even be me? And be in another galaxy?
I know that there’s a lot of shit in this universe, but if I were to be in another one
I wouldn’t even have the thoughts that I know are good, and that lead me to know that things aren’t so great in this universe

Why do I let me hate myself?
Whoa ohh
Why can’t I muster any bit of energy to tell my mental illness to shut the f*ck up

And I should cut myself some slack; at least I woke up, and made some food, and brushed my teeth and drank water but
It’s not enough, no it’s not enough
And the world doesn’t stop because you need a second to breathe
Oh no, it’s not enough, ohhh oh it’s not enough, ohh oh
But if I can’t push through it all to do what I’m passionate about, what I’m serious about, to get skilled, get better, then will I ever?
And does that mean I’m not really passionate enough?
I know shouldn’t feel like that, but everything is so tough
And I hate using things like depression as a crutch, as an excuse but, it makes it so goddamn hard to get up

So why, do I let me hate myself? Ohh I guess it’s easier to give in to defeat, than to muster up any bit of energy to tell everything to shut the hell up

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